Has It Always Been Him? (EXO Chanyeol fanfiction)

Mixed Feelings

~Long Chapter Ahead~

I wake up to the smell of coffee. Hmm. I open my eyes and see Park Chanyeol leaning on the oak wardrobe across me, holding a cup. "Good morning, Hani. I was just about to wake you up," he say smiling. He looks so happy. "Morning. Is that for me?" i ask. "Uh oh. You won't be drinking any coffee for some days," he says. "Excuse me?" i ask back in confusion. He walks toward me and sit right in front of me. "You're so beautiful" he compliments. I just roll my eyes hearing that. "Listen. Last night you passed out on me. I brought you here as it is the nearest and the safest place to stay. Seeing your condition, i called our private doctor" he says. I'm still confused at the whole situation. "The doctor said you almost got hypothermia and to make that even worse, the coffee that you drank happen to have some substance which your body can't tolerate. He gave an IV and leave after 30 minutes. Thankfully, you woke up an hour after he left" he explains.  I just nod. "I saw you fell right before my eyes, Hani. I didn't know what to do. You looked so pale and cold. Why would you do something stupid like that? Did you know you could kill yourself?" he says. He tries to explain as calm as he can but i can see the vein bulging on his throat.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry for what happened. I was looking for you. I looked everywhere and still couldn't find you," i say. "Did Sehun told you that i left?" he asks. "Jongdae oppa called me. I was panic knowing you were out there in a freezing cold weather alone.." i explain. "I'm so sorry i made you worried." He says as he warmly hugs me. "By the way, Seungri called you this morning. I couldn't help but to pick it up as it keeps on ringing. He is on the way here to pick you up. He's mad at you, Hani" he says and laughs. "He probably wants to punch you for making me like this" i joke. Chanyeol looks down "If i were him, i'd kill me for making you like that," he says. "Now, go wash up. I'll order food. Up for some tuna sandwich?" He asks happily. I just nod and leave to shower.

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I really want to ask him about what we've done last night but i don't want to ruin the mood. He just shines this morning. "Why are you smiling?" Chanyeol asks. Uh oh i got caught. "Nothing. You just look extremely radiant this morning," i compliment. He smiles. "Well, last night was one of the best night in my life. I'm a happy happy man," he says. I choke on my orange juice. "Geez calm down. You want me to forget what we did?" he asks. Oh my god he has no shame whatsoever. He takes my hands. "Look at me. Thank you for making me happy," he says. Suddenly the bell rings and we know that Seungri is here. Ughhh i'm sooo not ready with Seungri's questions.

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I end up staying in Seungri's apartment for the whole day. Geez i'm really sick. I'm so upset that i cannot attend the first elyxion in Seoul with the boys.
My phone rings. "Yeoboseyo? Odieyo?" he asks. I take a look at the caller ID and it's Jongin. "Annyeong oppa. I'm in Seungri's apartment. What's up?" i ask. "Alright we're on the way. Is there anything you want to eat?" he asks. "Uhh no i don't really want to eat. You don't need to do that" i say. "We'll be there in 20 minutes" he says and hangs up. I'm still confused with the term we that he's using. Is Chanyeol coming with them? I hope so. I want to see that giant happy virus.

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"Omooo you look so pale!!" Baekhyun shouts as soon as he sees me. "You've been away one day and this is how you look like," Kai says. Oh goodness. I'm not in a condition where i can put up with his moody attitude. "Ya! Don't be mad at her. She doesn't wan't to be sick either, Jonginna," says Jongdae. "Have you gone to doctor? Are you really okay?" Jongdae says as he holds my shoulder to help me walking. "Yes. I just need to rest a little more," i say. "Hi, Hani. I hope you get well fast. Sehun whines when you're not with us. He misses you a lot," Suho says. I smile hearing his words. I know how childish Sehun can be. He's been attacking my phone since last night. What do i expect from the maknae? However, I can't hide my disappointment not seeing Chanyeol with them.
Positive thinking, Hani.

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"Eat," Kai says. "I'm really not hungry Jongin," i say as i lean closer to Jongdae on the couch. "Jonginna, stop forcing her to eat. She'll eat if she wants to," Jongdae defends me. "Hyung, stop defending her. She needs to eat to get better" Kai argues. "I'll feed you" Kai says and shove a tablespoon of samgyetang to my mouth. I take a look at his pleading eyes and take a bite. "I promise i'll take you to that Chinese restaurant that you love this Friday if you finish this bowl of soup," Kai says. My eyes lit up. "Then we have a deal" i say and see Jongdae and Baekhyun laughs.

"Uhh oppa, where's the rest of the members?" i ask Jongdae, whose legs intertwined with mine. He's really like my brother. "The maknae and Kyungsoo had to shoot, Minseok hyung had an appointment with a dentist and Chanyeollie went somewhere with his giant bros," he explains. "Aah i see," i simply reply.

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The boys prepare to go back to their house. "Hani, i need to talk to you for a moment" Jongin says. I follow him to the empty kitchen bar. He sighs. "What's wrong?" i ask. He walks towards me and hugs me, tight.
"Wha-what ha--" he cuts my words. "Bogoshipo" he says silently. "Are you okay? Is something bothering you?" I ask. He looks at me and holds my face. "No, i'm not okay" he says. "Take a look in the mirror then you'll be able to see who worries me," he says. I sigh. "I'm sorry i made all of you worried" i say. "Can you promise me not to do that ever again?" he asks. "I...i don't know" i say. "Would you do the same if it was me?" he asks carefully. He stares at me deeply. "Don't ask things like that, Jongin. I don't like that" i reply. "I don't like the fact that you don't answer that question either," he says. Boom. Damn right he can see through me. "Yes i'd do the same for you.....and the others as well" i say. He laughs. I raise my eyebrows. "I'm pretty sure i wasn't being funny" i say, feeling slightly annoyed. "You know what?" he asks.
"You only look those in front of you, forgetting the one that cares enough and settles down his feelings just to keep you happy around him" he explains. "I really hope you can see him, Hani" he says. "Maybe...just maybe, he deserves you more than you think," he adds.
What. The. Heck.