What should i do?

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Lay puts his fluffy coat on me and says "You really need to take care of yourself, girl. Sehun hurry up! Your nuna is freezing!". Yeah, i just did a stupid thing. I left the fluffiest winter coat that i bring with me in the hotel, on my bed to be exact. I'm freezing to death until Lay gave me his winter coat. Me and Sehun made time to see him at lunch before going back to Korea. He treated me wonderfully. He really curious about me keeping up with the boys. He wonders if the boys treating me right. If only he knows how everyone being generously kind to me. I hope he can hang out with the full squad as soon as possible.

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We just arrived in Korea and in a few minutes, we'll be arriving in the house. "Nuna, do you know that Kai hyung is sick? He called me last night, he said that he got a pretty severe cold. He ruined his drama schedule because of that," he says. "Really? I don't know about that. I hope he gets well soon," i say worriedly. It's funny how i don't really know the personal life of each members, unless those who's pretty close with me like Sehun, Chanyeol and Jongdae. Beside those people, we always communicate through group chat that Sehun created. It is also weird considering how close i am with Jongin, yet little do i know what's going on in his life. "Should we make him a chicken soup? Can we stop at the mart first?," i ask him. "Sure! I want to buy bubble tea too," Sehun says and tells the driver to stop by.

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"Here comes the couple of China!," Baekhyun says and gives me a brief hug. Me and Sehun just laugh at his words. He always fascinate me with his funny words. "Omo! You're so cold, Hani. You need to take a warm shower!," Baekhyun says. I nod and head upstairs.

I walk pass through Chanyeol and Jongin shared bedroom. I see the door is half open and knock. "Yeollie? Are you there?" i ask. It's only been 3 days but i miss him like crazy. "Come in," someone replies. That's definitely not Chanyeol's voice. I open the door carefully  and see Jongin's weak body on the bed. I sit next to him and see him smiling to me. "How's your schedule? Was it fun?" he asks. "Chanyeol hyung says that you got modeling offers. I'm so proud of you," he adds. Why does he care about me this much? "Thank you. It was fun, indeed" i reply. "Why are you sick again? Can i do something to help?" i ask. "I think i wasn't eating well and my drama schedule was packed. The cold weather worsen my condition," he says. "I'll take a quick shower and make you some soup. I'll be back in 30 minutes. Just...just try to sleep," i say and get up to leave. "NO!" he says. Umm what? "Ne? What's wrong? Are you in pain? Do you want to go to the hospital?" i ask. He smiles and say "Can't you just be here until i sleep?," he asks. "Is that too much to ask?" he adds. Hell. He looks vulnerable, for some reason.
Is something bad happen to him?
He's usually not needy, not at all.
"No, it's fine. I will be with you after cooking your soup. You have to promise me to eat, tho," i say. "I promise, mom" he says cheerfully as if a little boy. Damn he looks adorable. I pat him on his head and quickly runs to the bathroom.

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"Can you eat by yourself?," i ask. "Umm no i can't," he says. "Really? Your hands look fine," i joke. He looks so embarrassed and his cheeks flushed. "I'm just joking! Sit up. I'll feed you," i demand. He smiles shyly and sit up. I begin to feed him. "How is it? Does it taste alright?" i ask curiously. "It's good! Very good actually" he replies. "Thank you so much. I needed this," he says as he hold my left hand. "You needed soup?," i ask. "No, not the soup," he says while smiling wide. What's so funny? "I needed to be with someone," he says. I laugh. "Oh come on! You live with at least 8 people," i say, rolling my eyes. "I know. It's not what i meant...it's just.." he says and looks down at his hands. "Alright i get it. You just miss me, don't you?" i joke and laugh. It's really fun to see him embarrassed. This is the side of Kim Jongin that i like. "Hmm maybe," he says and looks into my eyes. Holy moly. Did he just admit that miss me? What's that supposed to mean? My freaking god. What is this feeling? "Hani? I think i'm done. I can't take another spoonful of soup," he says and goes back to a sleeping position. "Umm ye-yeah sure. I'll go downstairs," i reply. "Wait, no," he says as he holds my hand. I swear to god his touch does something to my body. "You said you'd be here until i sleep," he argues. "Ahh right. Okay i'll sit on the chair," i say as i try to move his hand on mine. "No. Sit here, next to me. There's a lot of space for two, you know," he says. Holy shit i'm so nervous right now. I sit next to him and my back rest on the bed-board. "Night, Hani," he says. He then put his head on my lap, still holding my hand on his and closes his eyes. I freeze. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm know i don't like him. I'm pretty sure i already fell for Chanyeol. But why does my heart beat so damn fast when he touch me?

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I feel like walking, but i know i'm not. I open my eyes and see someone holds me in his arms. Oh my god. Did i fell asleep again? "Yeollie?" i ask. Chanyeol has always been the one who does this kind of thing to me. "Aniya. It's Jongin," he replies. What.The.Heck. "Ohmygod! I'm sorry!," i say and try to move out of his grasps. "He looks surprised seeing my reaction. "I'm so sorry i shouldn't have slee-" he cuts my words. "Is this how you respond when Chanyeol hyung hold you?" he asks, still holding me in his arms. I feel like my heart slowly stops beating. "Is this why he keeps on smiling after taking you to bed?," he asks again. "What?" I ask back, not liking where this conversation is going. He leans in. Close enough to feel his warm breath on my cheek. "Wha-what are you do-doing?" I ask nervously. Is he about to kiss me? Does he gone mad?
I hear a loud thump to my left and turn my head. It's dark in the hallway. All i see someone's back running down the stairs, leaving his bag on the wood floor. He smiles warmly and give our face some space. What was that about? "You don't answer my question," Jongin asks. I turn my head to look at his direction. "Uhh i-i don't understand what you mean," i reply. "Stop playing with our heart, Hani" he says as he put me down. I try to stand and process his words. I grab his right arm before he leave. "What... what do you mean Jongin?" i ask, looking directly at his eyes.

"See? You don't even know what you've done," he says

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"See? You don't even know what you've done," he says. He puts me down and go to his bedroom, leaving me behind. I sit on the floor, still processing what Jongin said.
Playing with our heart? Whose heart? Him? ......and Chanyeol?

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