Modified (Uta x Reader)

35: Leaving

"Where are you going?" You asked as Uta began gathering up his things.

"Can I have my shirt back?" He asked, avoiding eye contact.

"What?! What happened? Why are you leaving? You don't even want to hold Yukizou?" You asked, frantically.

"My shirt, please." He held out his hand.

"But what about.... what about having a baby?" You mumbled, setting your own baby down briefly, to remove Uta's shirt to hand it to him.

"You're dangerous. You were right, this secret was too juicy for me. If I get too involved with you, your ex could slaughter all of my friends. He could already kill me. He saw my face. I didn't get any warning from you. You didn't say shit, YN. And you needed to." Uta shook his head as you picked your son back up.

You looked down, tears welling in your eyes.

"He could. He might." You admitted. "I don't think he would. He has no reason to. In fact, he has less of a reason to. He wanted our baby to have siblings... but it doesn't matter. Just go. Just leave me. I know I'm a danger. I just hurt everyone around me anyway."

As you spoke, you heard your front door close, indicating that Uta had already left.

"I got Juuzou hurt every time. And now I've gotten Uta hurt. What next, you, Yukizou? What am I going to do to you?" You pet his soft white hair as he settled onto your bare chest to sleep. "All I do is bring pain and suffering to people. I should have just said no. I shouldn't have been wooed by that stupid body modder. I knew better. You're the only man for me Yukizou and I knew that. Why do I let myself think I'm anything but some monster that is stuck in the middle? I'm too involved with the humans to live with the ghouls and I'm too much of a ghoul to live with the humans."

As you sniffled, you sat up.

"I'm sick of it. I'm going to do it tonight, Yukizou, and you're coming with me. We're going to find some fresh fucking meat. I'm fucking starving and I'm sick of that cafe meat that gets handed to me. Let me get dressed, get my mask and get going."

You felt anger growing inside of you. You had never actually killed a human; always scavenging. But tonight, you felt like maybe you could get lucky. Perhaps some unfortunate soul would be walking in an abandoned alleyway. Or maybe you could find someone willing to invite a woman and baby into their house. Either way, your kagune was itching to get out.

"I have such an ugly Kagune too, Yukizou, I hope yours is better than mine. But I doubt it. They seem to be pretty hereditary." You mumbled, thinking back on it. Your mother's was a large, fat tail-like kagune. Yours was a much slimmer tail, more whip-like than lizard-like. But regardless, you hated it. Some ghouls had a much prettier kagune and it was always a source of contention for you. "Regardless, I'll use it tonight."

And with that, you shut and locked the door behind you.