under the moonlight i feel different
staring up at the stars i feel alone
i feel sad and hopeless
i look up at the sky for answers sometimes
but all i get is silence, a silence that drives me mad
it drives me insane, to the brink of my sanity
i hate this, the feeling of anxiousness
not knowing what comes next
or what happens now
i try to cover it all up with drugs and alcohol
but it doesn't help, it just makes it worse
i worry for myself because no one else does
i've been getting fucked up these last four days
taking a break makes me feel shaky
i can't walk straight, i can't think right
it's scary because it's all completely true
i love the feeling of it in my system
whether it's alcohol or drugs, idc
i sit under the moonlight to reminisce
to think of the good times we had
to think of what could've been or what has been
it's depressing but it's calming
thinking about what my future could hold
it's scary to believe think that i was that stupid
to believe in a happy ending
to actually think that i was going to be happy
and have everything i wanted
but the moonlight showed me that i was wrong
it showed me not to care or not to believe
the moonlight showed me how to be strong
i sit under the moonlight to cry
to say goodbye
and one day maybe die
