it sucks feeling alone
it makes you feel anxious and upset
it doesn't help when you feel this way
all the time
i feel this way all the time
i don't know why
but i do
i miss the comfort of having someone in my bed
to be there for me and to speak to late at night
it feels terrible, knowing that you had it
and then lost it
i've had something recently but it doesn't exist
because this isn't a perfect world
it doesn't just work out
i can't tell people how i feel or else i look weak
i told one, but the change wasn't significant
i still feel alone
i surround myself with people, to keep me from losing my sanity
it helps sometimes
i think that it doesn't work sometimes though
because they're just friends
not lovers
as i formally mentioned, i had someone there for me these last few months
but i spoke to soon and fucked it up
perhaps it might be the same one day
the chances are highly unlikely
but i can still hope
i feel alone at night more and more all the time
with no one to talk to or to cry with
i'll get over it though, i did before
why am i like this?
so depressed
so lackluster
i feel so numb to everything nowadays
to my emotions
to my actions
i don't know why i do this anymore
why do i keep pushing
instead of sleeping
i don't know
i just don't
and it's breaking my heart again
goodbye, see you soon
