am i delusional for believing in love once again?
in believing in happiness?
in believing in security?
i'm going down a path that could lead to another heartbreak, but if i'm happy does it matter?
am i delusional for going into something so quickly, or am i just looking for something to hide the sadness behind?
am i delusional for believing in the illusion of a world where i'm happy and not constantly worrying about one person?
i hope this works out
she's beautiful
she deserves the absolute best
but am i delusional to think that i can be that what she needs or the best that she deserves?
i don't know
perhaps i'm just being delusional
thinking that i can hide away my depression
by perhaps falling in love once again
to make new memories in order to cover up the old ones
i'm scared for life but am i delusional for thinking that those scars can be covered up?
that they can be forgotten by making memories with someone new?
i don't know, i won't ever know
i'm just some delusional seventeen year old
