i regret falling in love and telling myself that everything would work out in the end.
i regret telling myself that it would be different and that i would last a life time just to be disappointed.
i don't know why i put so much trust in a relationship that was doomed to fail at some point because the world isn't fair to those who deserve a happy ending
i regret not telling her how much she really meant to me and how much i loved her
i regret being a little bitch and not telling her how i truly feel all the time. it sucks because that's exactly why i lost her, because i was scared to open up
i regret all the times i lashed out and was vocally rude to her
i regret showing her me and allowing her into my life to the point where she's still in it while not actually being in it.
i regret making memories because now everything is a reminder of my past and of her
i regret it all
i regret me
i regret what i've become
why can't i just be happy
why can't i just not be so regretful
i don't know anymore
i just don't
it's not fair
i want to be happy again
i go to all these different females, the ones that are better than her, the ones that i deserve
but they don't help
they just become another regret in a fucked up cycle
a cycle of pain
and false promises
it's so saddening because i tell myself i'll be okay
or that i'll be happy one day
but in the end i just regret it all
