blindness ❁ irwin a.u

chapter 1.

Three weeks have passed on since Ashton broke up with his girlfriend. He tells everyone he's fine but actually he isn't.

It's not the fact that he broke up with her. Which is sad too of course, but it's about not understanding why in earth she cheated on him. Maybe it's because they never had physical contact. Ashton hasn't had his first kiss yet, because he's terrified he'll mess up.

Ashton is a fragile guy and wouldn't hurt a fly. He's really insecure, mostly because he is blind. People judging him and making fun of him because of that makes Ashton even more secluded.

He sits in his room behind the drums. His hands sliding down the materials causing him to smile a bit. Drumming is always been the one thing that could make him happy, even on his worst day.

His big hands searching for the sticks and then slamming the drum kit. Getting lost in the beat of his drums. When he's done he hears a soft voice talking to him.

"Hey Ash."

He didn't know Calum was in his room, so he was a bit surprised hearing his voice.

"Hey Cal."

Calum wraps his arms around Ashton from behind, relaxing a bit.

"Are you okay?" he asks with a worried voice.

He knows how depressed Ashton can be sometimes, so he just wants to make sure that he is okay.

"I'm fine." his words are short, not really in the mood for a big conversation.

"We could get a pizza at our favorite restaurant? You look like you need one." Calum says with a small smile on his face.

"I don't know, I think I rather stay alone here in my room."

"Come on Ashy, you haven't been out since that day. You need to move on, I'm gonna help you."

Calum's hands reaches for Ashton's and they walk outside. He locks the door and takes his hand again.

"I-I'm not sure this is a g-good idea, maybe we should go back." Ashton's voice stutters softly.

"We'll have fun Ash, just some chilling in the park like we always did."

After a five minute walk they arrived at the crowded park. Calum looking around and sees an ice cream car.

"I'll be right back, getting us some ice cream!"

Before Ashton could protest Calum left, leaving him alone.

He hears someone playing guitar and tries to make his way to the music, but he failed and bumps into someone.

"Oh my god I'm really sorry, are you okay?" the girl tries to pick up Ashton who kind of shocked.

"I'm okay, I'm sorry for bumping into you." his head hanging down in shame.

"I'm so sorry, but I really need to go now, I'm in a rush, bye!"

And with that, Ashton is alone again, not daring to move anymore.

"Are you okay Ash? I'm sorry I shouldn't have let you alone." Calum apologises and brings Ashton to a bench.

Ashton nods his head and keeps it down, not feeling comfortable being outside.

Calum looks at Ashton, his perfect hazel eyes and the curls who are hanging on his head. Calum always had feelings for Ashton but never dared to tell him, knowing Ashton isn't gay or bisexual.

"C-can we leave please? I don't feel very well." Ashton whispered in his ear. "Sure if you want to."

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[a/n] I suck I'm sorry