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Ch. 16. More than just a Friend

A/N: I'm so sorry guys that I haven't been updating. I reread some of my story and I realized that I forgot to mention something!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soo Ah also has a scar on the side of her neck because of the accident. I'm so sorry that I forgot to mention that :0

After that we got onto the bus to go back to the school. There were still a lot of people on the bus. I was looking out the window but for some reason I had a feeling that Sehun was looking at me. I looked back at him. He was looking at me!!

He looked surprised that I looked back at him and tried to look away.

"Haha what's wrong with you. You looked shocked." I asked while laughing.

"Nothing! I wasn't shocked. I was just...."

"....just what?" I said.

"Oh look it's almost our stop!" Sehun said. I knew he was just trying to change the subject. It was funny.

We got off the bus and because the bus stop was a couple of blocks from the school we had to walk.

"I had a lot of fun today!" I said.

"Me too." Sehun said.

"You were really working that skirt." I said while laughing.

"Haha I should of gotten it shouldn't of I?"

"Haha yeah. It would of worked on you so well." I said and looked at Sehun.

He looked back at me. In that moment I felt like blushing. How could I of grown a attraction at this time. I'm about to leave already. I can't do this to him.

Then all of a sudden...

Sehun's....

Soft, warm hands....

Held mines. Then he looked ahead and continued walking while still holding my hand.

I was so in shock.

I hated myself so much. How much I wanted to hold his hand. How much I didn't want to let go. But I had to.

I wanted to just cry.

"Sehun...

...Hajima(don't/stop)." I forced myself to say as I pulled my hands away.

I know that I would regret hurting his feelings but I won't regret doing what I did.

I can't be attached to him. I was going to leave soon. I didn't want to feel the agonizing pain that I felt before. I didn't want to hurt Sehun anymore than this. He wouldn't feel as sad if I stopped this now than if we started to actually...fall in love and then I left.

Sehun stopped walking and turned to face me. I didn't want to look at him

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-". Sehun said but was interrupted by me.

"Sehun. Don't make this any harder than it already is. Don't apologize. Please don't." I stopped talking.

"No matter how much I want to hold your hand, no matter how much I just want to hug you, no matter-... No matter how much I want to tell you that I- ... That I had feelings for you. I couldn't." I told Sehun. And before I knew it I was crying.

"Soo Ah. What?" Sehun said.

"You don't understand. I'm going!! I'm leaving!!! I'm going back to the states next week!" I yelled as tears rolled down my cheeks more. It hurt me even more looking at Sehun's reaction.

He was at the edge of his tears. His eyes we filled with tears.

"Sehun I'm sorry!! I'm sorry!! Mehanae!!!(sorry)". I yelled. I couldn't look at him anymore. I couldn't bare it anymore. I looked away again.

Then Sehun hugged me. His warm hug. The feeling of protection, comfort all came back.

"I said that I'll be here for you even if we were apart didn't I?" Sehun said. He said in a voice that seemed like he was crying. I wasn't sure if he was.

Until I felt a droplet fall on my shoulder.

He was crying.

I hugged him tighter and rubbed his back. Thats what he did to make me feel better when I was crying, now he was crying, I wanted him to feel better.

We were hugging each other, crying, on the side walk with cars passing by,with the world going on but it felt again as the world just stopped.

"Everything is going to be ok." I told Sehun.

I felt like more tear drops were falling down my cheeks and Sehun's tears falling down on my shoulder.

He tried to wipe them away. He tried hiding his sadness.

"It's ok to cry. You don't always have to be strong."

Sehun hugged me tighter.

"I'm going to miss you." Sehun said.

"I'm going to miss you too. I-.. I hope you understand." I said to Sehun. I really hoped that he understood. I can't believe that I'm actually saying this but...I think I've come to like Sehun. I think I've come to like Sehun, not as a friend anymore...even more than just a friend. But why am I afraid to use the word love. I wanted to love Sehun not as a friend anymore but even more. But I couldn't.