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Ch. 22. Believing or Knowing

I woke up. Today was going to be Sehun's mothers funeral. Maybe I should go see him before he leaves.

I went to his dorm and before I knocked on the door Kai opened it.

"Oh. Soo Ah, do you need something?"

"Um I just came to see Sehun before he left. Are you going somewhere?" I said.

"Yeah I was just about to go to Chanyeol's dorm. You can go in."

"Oh ok. Thank you." I said and walked in.

I didn't see Sehun. I was just looking around for a second and saw the bubble tea that we got him yesterday. He drank it. I knew he would. The I heard someone opening the bathroom door. I turned around.

Kskemxjejwowkjskekwa!!!!!!!

Sehun came out with a towel.

Topless with only a towel.

"Yah!!!!" I screamed and covered my face with my hands.

"What are you doing in here?!?!" Sehun yelled back.

"Hurry up and put your clothes on!!!!" I yelled.

"I forgot to bring my clothes in!! It's-it's right there."

Are you fucking kidding me. Right on his bed. Right where I was standing next to.

Sehun was walking closer with his hands covering his chest.....wait....how would I of known if I had my hands over my eyes....whoops. I put my hands on my eyes again.

"Yah!!!!! Don't come closer!!!!" I screamed.

"Then hand me my clothes!!"

I slowly took my hands off my eyes with my eyes still closed and grabbed his clothes and threw it at him.

I heard him go back to the bathroom.

Huh.

What is wrong with me!!!?? I looked!!!!!!

I just sat there hating myself until Sehun came out of the bathroom...now with clothes. He was wearing black pants and a dress shirt.

"What were you doing in here?!!" Sehun said madly.

"Why are you mad!! I should be the one mad!! You're the one who forgot to bring your clothes!!"

"You didn't answer my question."

"I came to see you before you left."I said.

"And I see that you drank the bubble tea from yesterday!" I said again.

"Yah.. I was.. I was.."

"You were what?" Don't be so mean I thought to myself. His mom's funeral is today.

"I'm just kidding. Do you need my help with anything?" I tried to be nice.

"Yeah I need you to help me put this tie on." Sehun said.

... A tie. How do you expect me to know how to tie a tie. I mean I don't even know how to put makeup on and I'm a girl.

"Ah...funny thing. I don't know how to." I said.

"Of course you don't." Sehun said still mad and tried to fix his tie himself.

"No. I don't!" I yelled.

Soo Ah!! Can you not be any nicer!?!? I kept on saying to myself.

Sehun fixed his tie himself and got dressed himself.

Why am I still here?

"Sehun. I'm sorry." I said which broke the award silence.

"About what?" Sehun said. Still mad.

"That I... couldn't be there for you when you needed me."

Sehun stopped doing what he was doing for a second and then carried on.

"I live in reality. I know that someone is not always going to be here to comfort me."

"I live in reality too and I thought I had someone who would be there for me. Like they promised." I said.

"Well in reality sometimes people don't always keep their promises." Sehun said as he was about to leave.

It hurt. What he said. It hurt.

"I'm going. Stay here if you want." Sehun said.

"Wait." I said to Sehun who was at the door and I went up to him.

"I'm really really sorry. Believe me if you want." I said.

Sehun looked at me and then left.

Did he believe me? I was really sorry. I wanted him to know that I was. Not believe but actually know.