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Ch. 31 What Love Is

I sat on the steps in my baggy and loose sweat pants and my loose Porroro shirt. I sat there for a while and looked up at the sky questioning myself, my life.

I was crying more. I missed my parents so much. When I first came to Seoul to study I wasn't sure if I was making the right decision. I still don't know. Maybe I shouldn't have came. I wiped my tears away and closed my eyes.

"What are you doing out here alone?" Someone behind me said. I turned around in shock. It was Sehun.

"Ah you scared me." I said.

"Can I sit here with you."

"Yeah, sure."

Me and Sehun were quiet. And we both just looked at the stars.

"What are you doing out here alone?" Sehun asked.

"Nothing. Just thinking. Why are you out here?" I asked.

"Thinking too." It got quiet again. The night air was cold but it was really nice to just look at the sky and not have to worry.

We remained quiet for a while. I looked at Sehun. He was about to fall asleep. Already half asleep.

I looked up at the sky again and I suddenly felt him lay his head on my shoulders.

I was really shocked but I letted him lay on my shoulder for a little bit.

"Sehun we should get going." I said quietly to him after a couple of minutes.

"Ani I like it here. Let's stay here for a little big longer." He said and lifted his head up, took off his coat and put his coat on my lap and laid on it.

I was really shocked.

It got quiet again. I looked at Sehun who was laying on my lap. He made me think that I didn't make a mistake by coming to South Korea. If I didn't, I wouldn't have met these wonderful people. He made me think that if I didn't come back to Seoul that he probably wouldn't still be the person that he is now.

"Sehun, Gomawo(thank you)." I said.

"For what?" Sehun said. I thought that he was asleep already.

"Everything. Even though I haven't been the best person to you, your still here. You make me not regret coming here to South Korea."

"Truth is, I wouldn't be the same person if it weren't for you. You made me love myself for who I am."

"Why wouldn't you love yourself. I love you. It doesn't matter if I love you as a friend or... Even more than a friend anymore. It shouldn't matter."

I looked at Sehun as a tear rolled across his face. He wiped his tears.

"You know sometimes you don't always have to act strong. It's ok to cry." I whispered.

"I know." Sehun whispered back and wiped his tears again now smiling.

Sehun's smile. I don't know what it was either but...when I see him smile. It brought happiness to me.

He turned around and faced upwards facing me.

"Soo Ah, remember when I told you that I would be there for you? And you told me that you'll be there for me too? And that you could tell me anything." Sehun said.

"Of course. I would never forget." I replied.

"I just have to ask you one thing. Do you-...do you still have feelings for...Chanyeol?"

I was surprised that he would ask that. Maybe because it was just so forward and I never thought about it.

I thought about it for a little bit.

"Honestly, no. He's someone else's happiness, and there's someone else being my happiness."

"Oh...I didn't know that...who is it?" Sehun asked.

I pretend to look around to see if anyone else was there to hear.

"You promise you won't tell anyone." I whispered.

Sehun nodded.

"Well he's sometimes mean and arrogant. And has this sassy attitude."

"And you like him!!!!!!!????? He sounds like a girl when you say he has a sassy attitude." Sehun said.

"Hmm..like him? I never said that, I said that he was my happiness. But yeah he can sometimes be a little girl. But he is also really caring, kind, nice, smart, funny, silly, tall, handsome, protective, and is always there for me." I said.

"Ah.. I see....."

"But yeah sometimes he can big pabo (idiot). A REALLY REALLY BIG PABO!!!!!!" I yelled.

"Oh I see." Sehun said and sat up. "I didn't know." He said.

I handed him his coat.

"Aish?!?!?!! You know what's worse about him?" I said.

"Nope."

"He's you." I said with a fake sorrow face and shook my head.

Sehun put his arm around me. You might think ah such love birds. But nope. He put his arms around me, put his hand on my head and then messed up my hair.

"Yah!!! Pabo!!!!" I yelled.

"You scared me half to death!!" He laughed and then hugged me.

"I didn't say I liked you, you know." I said.

"I know. But I do. I LIKE YOU!!!!" He yelled loudly.

"Why do you like me? I'm just a ugly girl that looks more like a guy and acts like a guy. I'm not those pretty skinny girls you guys like." I said.

"I'm wondering the same thing. Why do I like you?" Sehun said while laughing.

"Yah! Thanks for the compliment!!"

"I'm kidding. I like you because...because your you. I like how you don't care what people think about you, you are caring, kind, smart, pretty, beautiful to me. I just like you for some reason. You make my heart race faster than the speed of light when I see you. Because your Yang Soo Ah."

I put my arms around him.

"I don't know why I like that pabo I was talking about either. There's something about him." I said.

"So you do like that pabo?!!!" Sehun said excitedly.

"Saranghae(I love you)" I said and laughed.

"I love you too." Sehun said.

Now I know what love felt like. How it felt to be in love. Your heart races faster than the speed of light when your with the one you love and it feels as if your heart might just burst out.

The person you love makes you happy, they are your happiness, they are the one you want to be there for, the one you will never forget.

A/N: heh so yeah I've never loved someone before besides loving my family, friends, and yeah..kpop artists that don't actually know of my existence...YET, anime and manga characters, fictional characters...nor bubble tea hahaa lol food basically so it's probably not accurate about what I said about love....lololololol.