Unspoken Love

Chapter 8

Camila's POV

I greeted the beaming sun. It was nice outside and I want to go for a walk. I let my feet take me into a familiar path that I recognize. It was the way where Normani told me where she used to live. It's not a far walk, in fact it was peaceful. I can now see the roof of the abandoned yet ruined house of my bestfriend. I took a couple of steps....... Then I forgot how to breath...... The scenery before me is something that would take my breath away in a negative way... Dinah Jane, my girlfriend is here lip locked with my best friend, Normani Kordie. What are the odds. I should've known. I cleared my throat and blinked my eyes rapidly to avoid tears from flowing down. I made my presence clear for them to see I am standing here. They break the kiss and looked at me with wide eyes.

"Camila..... It's not what you think it is." Dinah rumbled.

"Then tell me what exactly it is! because I can clearly see your tongue down her throat!" I nearly screamed.

"Her tongue is not down my-" Normani said but I cut her off. "Oh... Please! Normani stop.... There's no excuse or other twisted lie you can put.... I clearly saw you guys making out!"i said as I gave the both of them a deadly glare. Dinah cowered down under my gaze while Normani just bluntly looked away.

"This is your relationship problem not mine." Normani said while making an exit.

"Yes! Fine! Go ahead and run away! That's what you're good at, isn't it? Running away from the problems that you think will break your heart! Runaway and forgetting that you've done something wrong? You know Normani...... Running and pushing away people won't help you.... It will just damage you further!" I argued.

"Yes Camila..... I run away... Because it's the only solution! but I'm not running away because I want to forget.... in fact these problem are engraved deeply into my brain and to my heart that it's the only thing that keeps giving me reason that it's best to runaway! You won't understand because you're in a happy land... you won't understand because you don't know how much it hurts for the world to hate you! you don't how much it hurts to be the cause of the pain of people you love... Because that's the truth Camila.... ever since I'm born... I'm the pain, I'm the problem. so don't speak as if running away is my only way of happiness because it is the total opposite." she spits out. she didn't give me the chance to argue back as she ran away from me, from the pain, I am the pain....

"You were never a pain to me Normani, in fact you were my healer when you came into my life......" I whispered.

"Camila..." Dinah murmured as she tried to comfort me. I shrug her off.

"Camila..... Please let me explain!" she said as she walks beside me trying to keep up with my pace.

"What is there to explain? huh Dinah?" I asked while stopping. She stopped and stand in front me.

"Everything..." she whispered. "just please let me."

"Then explain to me..... Why you decided to pity dated me when it's obvious that your hearts yearns for Normani? Why did you say yes? You know Dinah..... it could've been easier if you answered me no... It could've been less painful...." I said.

"Camila." she said as she pulled me to her. I tried to pry myself off of her grip but it was no use... She held me tighter as I tried to push harder. So I stopped struggling and sobbed into her shoulders.

"It's true.... my heart yearns for Normani but my heart screams your name too.... I did not pity dated you... I truly love you Camila.... I love you and Normani... You make me feel safe.... make me feel secure to love and to be loved. please Camila believe me." she said. I slowly untangle myself and takes a huge step back.

"Time..... Give me time and space Dinah.... Let me think.." I whispered but I never made eye contact because I know when I did she will easily win her forgiveness.

Dinah's POV

I watched her walk away... I watched both of them to walk away. But I clearly messed everything up... I should've known better... kept my distance from Normani and just focus on Camila and I... but it's hard to be completely torn away equally... Both of them gets my heart to speed up... Let my butterflies erupt in the pit of my stomach.... But sometimes we have to choose.... Choosing might be hard, because you will lose one thing that you love over someone that you equally love... love contradicts itself... Love makes you weak yet gives you power... Love is something that no one dared to truly define... Live is something that all humans feel and sometimes it is the cause of heartbreak but sometimes it is also the cause of a fluttering heart. By the end of this day... I should know which one should I focus on more... To which one I will give my whole heart... give my whole time... because I know I can't be with both of them at once...

Narrator's POV

A person is happy to find someone who will truly care and who will love them completely... But Dinah? she's lucky, very lucky since she found two... But unfortunately that luck she has only caused her misery instead of happiness.