The Dark Souls •H.S•

•- T.W.E.N.T.Y_E.I.G.H.T -•

It used to be darkness, but now it’s filled with light. It used to be cold, but now it’s just warmth. It used to feel strange but now it just feels familiar. I look around in confusion but there is also a feeling of safety in my heart. I ask myself, where am I? I look around and saw a long path, at the end of the path I can see a bright light. I suddenly have the urge to follow the light, and before I could, I felt someone’s warm palm holding my wrist, holding me back from going towards the light.

“Don’t go there, it takes you away from life.” The person’s sweet and warm voice fills my whole body, and immediately my brain followed what the person said.

I turn to look at the person, and immediately I recognised her. I don’t know how, but I just did, it’s just a feeling.

“Mom?” I said, in a low voice, almost a whisper. She smiled at me, her beautiful, long and wavy, light brown hair flowing freely. Her face is round and she has bright brown eyes matching with her pale skin. She is so beautiful, so beautiful that my eyes went dry by just staring at her without blinking.

“Darling.” She said and opened her arms wide, signalling me to embrace her in a warm hug. I didn’t hesitate and I wrapped her around my arms while she did the same. Her hair smells like lavender and I smile automatically. After a long time, I feel good in someone’s arms.

She broke the hug, making me feel disappointed but her frown caused me to throw away the disappointment and look at her in confusion.

“What’s wrong?” I ask her, and her frown deepens.

“Why aren’t you listening to your heart?” she gently asks, still holding the frown. I laugh and smile at her.

“Of course I am listening to my heart, mom.” I said, the word mom, rolled off from my tongue perfectly for her.

“Darling, you will soon realise.” She said, and suddenly her voice started fading. She herself, started fading. I held on to her hand, but unfortunately she faded. A trickle of tear slid down my cheek as I longed for the same warmth I felt a while ago. Suddenly, the moment I dreaded the most has come, I have been surrounded with darkness.

I open my eyes and immediately flinch at the contact of light. I felt moisture under my eyes so I touched my cheek and looked at my finger. I rub my fingers together filled with moisture. I then ask myself, did I cry? Why? For some reason my chest is filled with a feeling. A feeling of sadness, a feeling of longing and a feeling of something that I quite don’t know what it is but I do know that it’s a feeling that is missing.