dear diary↝nomin

11.5

dear jeno,

i read your journal. it must have taken a lot to be able to send that to me. i'm so sorry i ever made you feel that way. but you're happy now, i'm glad. renjun is a wonderful person, i'm sure you guys will make each other happy. it would be nice to see you again, yeah? i missed you.

remember all those nights we spent sneaking out on top of your roof with piles of blankets just to watch the stars? i guess i knew what love was then. i'm sorry i couldn't have told you then, maybe we still would have been freinds if i had said something back then. i'm sorry i was so concerned with what my parents believed. i'm sorry i never saw how much you cared for me. and god i'm sorry for treating you like shit because i was immature and didn't know what love was even if it punched me in the face.

i'm glad renjun makes you happy now. it's crazy to think that if maybe i hadn't been so selfish then i could be with you right now. i hope i can see you again, jeno. it would be sad for all of those memories to go to waste wouldn't it? i wish you the best

-jaemin