everything seemed to fall into place for the two. jeno's fantasy of them finely being together was true. and he gave everything to jaemin- time, gifts, you name it- he spoiled jaemin to no end. he couldn't believe he was with someone as perfect as jaemin.
weeks had passed since that night and they were both happier than ever. neither of their parents knew of their relationship which meant that could spend weekends with each other. everything was in their favor. they were 2 kids that couldn't help but fall in love. and love drove you to do crazy things.
they were in jeno's room, his parents gone for the week meant jaemin staying over every night. jaemin was straddling jeno's waist, his hands tangled his boyfriend's hair. he let his lips trail down to jeno's neck.
small innocent kisses soon turned into light sucking and biting. jeno felt his heart race pick up, his nerves taking over. he lightly pinched the top of jaemin's thigh, a small gesture the two established as a way to let the other know to stop.
"what's wrong?" jaemin asked innocently as if he wasn't just giving his boyfriend hickies.
"it's just that.. i-uhh don't you think it's a little fast? we've only been dating a few weeks and you're already.. you know." he felt awkward saying it, but he didn't know where jaemin was going with his kisses and the thought of sex made him nervous.
"did you not like it?"
"it's not that, it's just- you know, we haven't been together for that long and i-" jaemin quickly shut him up with a kiss, this one was hot and passionate. jeno pulled away only for jaemin to stick out his bottom lip in a pout.
"i just want you to feel good." he gave jeno a look he couldn't resist and without thinking, the older nodded, consenting to whatever jaemin had in mind. and god did jaemin make him feel good.
dear diary,
the other night you asked to do it with me. i agreed then, but now it seems like that's all you want from me. if it keeps you happy, then i guess it's alright. i just wish we could do other things, you know? like couple things. i want to take you out on dates and give you nice flowers and buy you gifts, but you keep telling me no. that your parents will find out. why can't you lie to them? i would do it for you if you asked. i want to do what normal couples do. i don't want all of our kisses to lead to sex. i want to get a bunch of blanets and pillows and cuddle with you all night, but you don't seem to care about those things anymore. i'm sorry if i bother you with those things. i just want to make you happy.
