Save Me

Unwanted

YOONGI:

I'm panting hard as I try to control my breath. Sweats are flowing down to my whole body, meet her sweats. I did this again and I don't feel guilty at all. This is normal right, I avenge her, I avenge all my sorrows.

I clenched my fist..

This is wrong. I don't mean to avenge my sorrow. I feel her body trembling again and I quickly looked up to her face. Tears are falling down from the corner of her eyes and I know what make her cry again. As if a big rock just storms into me,this heart is crumbling. I lay down beside her and pull her to my embrace.

I'm sorry...

"Yoongi-ah...Yoongi...I...,"

I try to look at her face eventhough I know it will only weaken my heart even more.

"I will never go back to his side again,"

Her tears burst out and destroy the thick silence in this room.

"But you can't go to his side too,"she hugs me tighly, her whole body is trembling.

"Don't we share this sorrow together?"

I don't reply Sana's words. When she opened her eyes to look at me, I find that my cheeks are drenched with tears. Why do I cry?

"Yoongi-ah...,"

Sana caressed my hair, her stare is so soft even though it's wistful. Oh, how annoying. It makes me not able to torment her even more. I feel something weird fills my heart. I want to pull Sana deeper into my embrace, keep her here forever so she won't cry anymore. This girl has sacrificed so much because of my stupid feeling to Jimin...

Why? Why you went too far?

Don't you hate me?

"Why do you sacrifice your heart this far?"I finally managed to talk.

Sana bit her lower lip and touched my wet cheek.

"Because it's my fault. If I didn't fall in love I would never feel sad. If he loves someone, someone else will cry. The other one will be sacrificed and get hurt. If that's what people call with love...it's a bad thing. To fall in love with someone...,"

"And I don't want you're the one who is sacrificed and hurt here. You can't suffering anymore Yoongi-ah...,"

For a moment the bad memories from the past are running around on my mind again. My step dad used to beat me until I almost die. My mom killed herself by hang her body in front of my eyes while I couldn't able to help her at all. My dad dragged me forcefully when I was still crying and praying in front of my mom's grave, beated and knocked me down then chained my leg and imprisoned me for days. No. Even since I child, there's no one who cared about me, no one ever wanted me, I'm just an illegitimate child who used to be my step dad's sandbag. If that was called by suffering, then is this comparable with what he experienced?

I released my embrace and rise my body to sit.

I already escape from that hell. I'm already free and fly away. But Jimin hasn't yet.

"Jimin still hasn't get released yet from his suffer. He even can't fly away like I did with my family,"

If I spent 10 years in my hell, Jimin is still living his own hell even until now.

*Save Me*

"I'm so happy that you can stay with us!"Jimin smiled widely and hugged little Yoongi. Mina who was with them smiled happily and joined the hug.

"What a relief Yoongi-ah! You won't be alone anymore,"Mina strokes his hair. Yoongi smiled slightly. He was so happy as if he was just reborn after get free from his step father. With Jimin and Mina. Yoongi was living a better days. They visited Yoongi in hospital everyday after school until Yoongi's wounds is healed and he can go home.