Save Me

It's Not About To Save Her

Sana's world for almost 17 years long might been too small. Too limited and just following the present legality. Too hard even for this genius girl to digest every word, eyes that full of loading emotions and pains inside his heart. Yoongi loves Jimin. What is that? What to call? Gay? Homosexual? Abnormality interest? Is this a mental disease? Is this kind of schizophrenia? Is this a kind of sexual disease? Like where the sexual interest is beyond the normality? Is that because of genes? Homosexual's DNA? Poor Yoongi.

Sana's mind was full of kind the logics she can think. Too scientist.

Sana removed Yoongi's already loosened grip on her shoulders. Tears were still running down. Sana knew that Yoongi is crying because he's suffering from the fact that Jimin only looks at Sana. But how about Sana? Was the innocent girl get too shock? Was that only the effect of her fear? Was she feel sympathy for what Yoongi feels? There's a tightening feeling, pain that Sana can't describe what the reason of what she feels right now. The next moment when Sana and Yoongi realized, Sana already hugged Yoongi tightly.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry Yoongi,"Sana whispered, she caressed Yoongi's head. Yoongi even couldn't fight, not even reject or insist like usual. Yoongi was still crying and as if he didn't realize with what happened until Sana's voice wake him up. Yoongi pushed Sana's body immediately, wiped his tears and glared at her with hostility again.

"I wish you can forget everything Minatozaki Sana if not, I will never bothering myself to think about how Jimin's feeling if you're disappear from this world,"Yoongi said with cold sharp words like a sword. Instead of feeling terrified like she was before or even got influenced by Yoongi's words, Sana was staring at Yoongi with courage and full...full of compassion.

"Yoongi...I...,"

"I kissed you because of him. And I'll keep doing that. Remember,"Yoongi released Sana's body and started to leave her.

Sana was kneeling down weakly. It was the words that she wanted to say. Sana had no idea what was she thinking about, she thought she is willing to be the bridge between Yoongi and Jimin. What was Sana thinking about? She will give Jimin's kiss to Yoongi...by kissing Yoongi. And she's the one who initiative. She was the one, who wanted to offer but Yoongi already said that first.

Then where's the logic laid by this soft faced girl? Is her compassion make her stupid? Sana knew by pitying Yoongi will only lead her to betray Jimin. But wasn't the source is Jimin himself? Yoongi was like that because of Jimin. And eventhough Sana was sure, Sana had already stabilized her heart but still, she can't lie on her own desire. She can't trick her own sympathy. Sana really couldn't ward that she is willing to loosen Yoongi's sadness from now on.

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"And then near the station there's a new café too, they said the café sell varieties ice cream menu. But I still suggest that we should visit café in Myeongdong first Tzuyu, I know you like matcha cake a lot!"Sana was talking with excitement and cheerfully while walking side by side with her bestfriend, Tzuyu.

"Ah ah! Or should we go to our favorite café first Tzuyu! I bet you miss bacon friedrice! Come on Tzuyu, thinking about bacon make me hungry!"Sana grabbed Tzuyu's hand. Tzuyu halted her step and stared at Sana with weak smile. The smile Sana wore the whole time was erased from her beautiful face upon realizing that Tzuyu isn't excited as her.

"Sana, I have no appetite for bacon friedrice,"Tzuyu said. Before Sana could open her mouth again, Tzuyu already cut her,"...also ice cream, or cake. I want to go home,"

"Are you feeling unwell Chou Tzuyu?"Sana checked her bestfriend's condition by placing her palm in Tzuyu's forehead. Tzuyu was indeed pale. Paler than she was this morning.