Save Me

First Love Sacrifice

"Yoongi is here. Yoongi is...still alive,"

Jimin couldn't believe his ears. Five days long he lost contact and news about his far away girlfriend, instead he should face the truth that hit his chest so hard. Yoongi is back, Yoongi has never died, he's still alive. And Jimin could process with his smart brain quickly for what's happening for past five days with his girlfriend there.

Yoongi is still alive and back. Sana has disappeared for five days without giving him news. Jimin sat weakly on the floor, almost drop his phone but there's a small hope that made him hold on. There's a little hope, the almost impossible hope, but Jimin wanted to believe, he wanted to ensure. That Sana is still having heart for him, heart to make him hold on. And that Yoongi really loves him.

Jimin closed his eyes, swallowing every bitterness, his ruined life.

"Really? Thanks God...I'm really worried thinking of where have you been. I'm relieved...so now there's someone who can take care of you there, Sana...,"Jimin covered his mouth, avoiding himself to burst into tears or if he couldn't hold to cry anymore. Sana wasn't allowed to hear that.

"O...Oppa...,"

"Tell Yoongi that he can't do stupid things anymore. He shouldn't hurt you again. He should take care of you...he should...,"Jimin gulped his saliva.

"Be beside you...,"tears were brimming on his eyes and unstoppable to fall down to his cheeks. Jimin couldn't let out any voice anymore, he was scared that Sana will find out that he's broken into pieces right now.

"Oppa?"

"Yeah...he should be in your side, take care of you...because I'm too far away from you. Sana, Yoongi won't hurt you again, I will never let that happen. He will take care of you,"Jimin said holding his tears.

Should Jimin let her go? Let Sana go? But can he?

"Oppa...I miss you...,"Sana cried weakly.

Jimin rubbed his drenched face with tears. Was Sana being honest? But her voice sounded so faint, bitter and it hurt Jimin instead. Does Sana still love him? Still have a little of her heart to him who don't know anymore whether he should continue to fight or stop?

"So-sorry for making you worried...,"now Sana's voice on the other line sounded sobbed.

"It's okay Sana ...don't worry me. I'm sorry Sana, I should attend an important meeting, take care of yourself....,"

"Eung...alright Oppa. I'm sorry...,"

"Ssshh...bye Sana,"Jimin said, he was not sure anymore whether to call her by 'sweetheart' is still normal between them.

Even Sana didn't say that anymore. Not anymore.

Jimin was frozen and felt empty after the phone hung up with 'Love you Sana' came out from his lips faintly without she could even hear that. No, Jimin was indeed whispered that love by himself intentionally. Jimin leaned back weakly in front of the couch in his apartement living room. Outside the apartement it's so crowded with people, cars and sun was illuminating the world with it's bright light but this room is covered by darkness. Once again Jimin's life is miserable, full of devastation. Really?

No.

After what he had been through, Jimin couldn't find any other greater pain than this. Right now he is really suffering. Right now is crueler than he ever had. More destructive, more lethal, made Jimin found his dead end. What should he do anymore? Should he continue his life? Should he continue his fight right here?

Jimin wiped away his tears and took his phone once again. Searching for a contact on his phone and quickly tapped the dial button. It was pretty long for him to wait until the called one pick the phone. When the other line picked the phone, Jimin's hoarse voice bursted out.