should i be here | bts.

| Final |

I pulled away from Jungkook's lusty drunk kiss.

"What are you doing?" I asked with my body pulled back from his but still in his arms, "just go to bed, you're too drunk." I pushed myself off of him and he walked over to his bed and crawled in as I walked to the bathroom to get dressed.

In bed, I had the warm feeling and taste of Jungkook's sugary kiss on my lips still. I smiled and turned in bed to face Jungkook, who was facing me and his eyes were wide open, staring back at me. I smiled at him and he opened his mouth.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have started this." He sighed.

"It's okay, you're drunk."

"But its not okay. I should know better. I'm just drunk on your love and how beautiful you are." I blushed and felt like crying.

"It's mine. I joined the band." I frowned.

"But it's not your fault, you're talented and beautiful and have everything that is perfect. From your lips, to every freckle." I didn't know what to say besides just lay there.

"I- I'm sorry. It really is my fault. I hurt you." I tear ran down my face, "Goodnight. I love you." I rolled over in my bed and started quietly crying holding back my sniffles, and fell asleep.

I woke up to Jungkook just blankly staring at the floor of the room. I stared at him and decided to let him be at peace. I got dressed like I usually did, but we had a press conference today. I put on a boxy crop top and a pair of jeans, along with a pair of white Vans. When we were all ready for the conference, we were seated at a long table for eight hours. I sat between Jimin and Namjoon. I sat at the table for a couple of hours while we talked about 'Love Yourself: Tear' in depth and more. After the conference, I fell asleep in the car on Hobi's shoulder with my lips parted.

Over the course of the next month is normal. Practicing, eating, sleeping, homework, while also finishing our promotions for LY: Tear. In June I wanted to go back to America for the last day of school but I knew I couldn't because of FESTA '18 so I stayed up all night to FaceTime them for the last day of school. I sat on my bedroom floor as Jungkook intently listened to my friends and I talk and catch up for 4 hours then they left. I climbed onto my bed and yawned.

"Your friends seem nice." Jungkook smiled at me and I smiled back.

"Yeah, they're great." I paused and set my phone on the table next to my bed, "They're the cutest and some of the greatest people alive." I smiled wider.

"Oh?"

"Yeah, we always walked around town together, like the one I showed you guys around; we'd always explore abandoned places and go on walks and eat out together." I remembered all of the pictures I have on my phone of all of the dumb shit we've done together. I picked up my phone and clicked on the folder that said "Friends because school." I went back to the eighth grade graduation where we had been running around after and had the best of time, then the next day (last day of school), we had taken pictures and videos all together. Then like 5 months into the new school year I get accepted into BigHit and now I'm here with the band. I also still have the tee that I had everyone sign.

"We could do that when we have time." Jungkook offered me and I smiled.

"Oh, no we couldn't, were too busy to get time for that, plus there's nowhere to explore, I've checked myself." I looked at the ceiling.

"How did you- never mind, I don't need to know."

"Well, since you asked," I winked at him. "I go out when you guys aren't downstairs and I know you'll be inside your rooms for awhile so I'll go look for places to explore." Now, I regret saying this, our bedroom door was open while Jin was walking by.