Problems 123 Problems 456
This list is endless
I wouldn't nowhere to start
You'd probably shut me up before I got the chance
Repress my feeling ,emotions for me with a
Everything will be okay
Tell me I'm fine
Without even hearing my side
Ignoring how I really feel
Forgetting I have an illness
But always keeping me from the truth
Protecting my mental state
Just in case I do something stupid
And your right
I cannot count the amount of times I've fed myself quiet
Starved the life in me
Fluctuated between all my different forms
I used to love the feeling of drinking cold water
On an empty stomach, waiting
For the cold to go all the way down
Form a pool in the deserted well
Because no one was ever wishing on me
No ever put a penny of hope into my future
So I'm sorry , sorry I disappointed you
Sorry that I was not the daughter
The sister friend or auntie
You wanted me to be
I'm sorry I will never be your mother grandmother role model
I'm sorry I was so selfish
that I starved u of the opportunity to feel my love like sugar on the tip of your tongue
I'm sorry I tried to save you from me
Or was I trying to save myself
Not from u but my self-destructing personality
Because I tear myself apart
Every day as I will do for eternity
All I want to do is change the past
Erase my mistakes easy as a whiteboard pen
I can't
But I will forgive myself in time
For being the bacteria to my own decay
For bringing myself to my knees begging for mercy
For never ending my own civil war
And I hope years from now
When you have endured blood sweat and tears
And made it through it all
you will forgive me for not being strong enough
to be you
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Road to nowhere
Poetrythis is a poetry book written through the stages of a teenage girls depression and what feels like a long road to the end that she doesn't want to be on for long. It is truly only a look into the mind of a depressed teen and the rollercoaster that i...
