Road to nowhere

Delusional Crush

Dear first "love" of my life,

when it all started I just thought you were cool

you were like no one I ever knew

you'd come and meet me after school

and we would talk about nothing for hours on end.

As things progressed

my feelings for you grew stronger

like a tree with branches growing wild

you weren't just there to pass the time any longer

I developed feelings like ones id never known.

The day I "fell in love" with you I cried for hours

because I knew it would never be

see you and me

we were my fictional novel.

You never met me outside of school

we never talked for hours on end

in fact you never spoke to me at all

and I guess that's why I now call it nothing

but the feelings I developed were real not fiction at core

however surrounded by make belief .

I remember thinking about how you would smell

and how you would grip me tight in your arms

how you would be there if I cried

how your shoulder would be a cradle for my head.

But I will never know your sent

never experience your warm embrace

will never have you hold me

your shoulder would never be the cradle for my tears

Because you will never be mine...