My Sunshine(discontinued)

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  Warning:
This chapter contains rape, suicidal thoughts, is extremely depressing, and is overall just plain old triggering. I got pissed off while I was writing it.

    "Hmm.." He hummed. "Move away from behind him, please." I swallowed and moved next to Lance. I started to shake as I felt his eyes practically rape me. "You." I snapped my head up. He gave me a sick smile. "I want you." He put moved his finger and pulled the trigger.  

I stared in shock at Lance. He looked down at his stomach as blood started to stain his blue and white striped T-shirt. He looked over at me and his knees gave out. I caught him and slowly sank onto the ground with my husband in my arms.

"Lance.. Oh God, no. Please no. No. No. No. No. No.." I mumbled with tears in my eyes, voice cracking from my emotions.

"D-Don't worry." Lance said with a pained smile. "I'm okay. I'll be alright. This is nothing. Jus' a scratch."

"That's the biggest lie if I ever heard one." I said, tears rolling down my cheeks.

"Don't worry, Sunshine.." Lance gasped, panting.

"You are my s-sunshine... My on-only Sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are Grey... Y-You'll never know d-dear, how much I-I l-love you... God, Please don't t-take m-my sunshine away..." Lance stared up at the stars above us and I watched the light leave his eyes. They got cloudy and I closed them, kissing his eyelids. "Goodbye... My Sunshine." I let out a piercing, heartbroken wail and sobbed into my dead lover's shirt.

"God, Dan. You really have to do that?" Someone called over my wails. Somebody grabbed my waist and dragged me away from Lance. I tried to fight them off and looked behind me to see Dan. His eyes were clouded with lust and I felt a rush of fear run through my veins. I slipped out of his grip and tried to run, but tripped and fell. He grabbed my waist and pulled me back. I was dragged to the car and thrown in the back seat. I sat up and tried to get to the passenger seat so I could get away, but I was pulled back down. I stiffened when I felt a cold gun pressed to my head. 

"That's better." Dan said with a grin. He pulled my pants down and I let out a sob. He stopped. "Oh, don't tell me you're a virgin... Even better!" He laughed as he took off my pants. I was completely paralyzed with fear. 

It was true. I was a virgin. I was a virgin because I was too scared to do it. And Lance never pressured me into doing it. He liked to ask me in the worst situations. We were at his parents' place- he has 8 siblings and even more nieces and nephews- and out of nowhere, at the dinner table, he asked, "Wanna have sex?" I choked on my enchilada and everybody laughed. "N-No!" I sputtered once I got my breath back. Lance just laughed and said "Okay."

This... This was not what I wanted my first time to be like. My boxers were pulled off and Dan whistled. "Damn kid, you're bigger than me!" He pulled the front of his pants down and pressed his dick against my asshole. I stiffened. "Kid, this is gonna hurt even more if you don't relax." For a second I actually heard concern in his voice. Then he grinned again. "Not that I'm complaining. I wanna hear you scream!"

He slammed into me and I let out a bloodcurdling scream that tore through my throat. He kept slamming into me and I cried harder than before. I got too tired to do anything other than lay there as I was raped and I stared up at the ceiling of the car. How did I get here? What did I ever do that was so awful that I deserved this? I knew something tore. Blood dripped onto the seat. Dan came inside of me and it burned my ass. I flinched as he pulled out, using my underwear to clean off his dick, which was covered in cum and blood. He pulled my boxers and pants back on me and covered me with a blanket. 

"Thanks, kid." He said with a wink. I just continued to stare, dazed, at the top of the car. After he left, I started to talk to my husband who was outside the car where I lied. Dead.

"Look, Lance... Look how far I've fallen so soon after your death. Lying in the backseat of a beat up car that I don't even know the name of. I remember you telling me what kind of car this was, but I forgot what you said. All I remember the way your lips formed those words. And the way door eyes crinkled as he looked at me. Pidge is dead. Allura is dead. Hunk is dead. Lotor is dead. Shiro is dead. Matt is dead. Coran is dead. Your mama is dead. Your papa is dead. All your brothers and sisters are dead. Lily, Aria, Nicolas, Alejandro, Tara, Markas, Carmen, Martina. Every single one of them. Everyone I considered part of my family.

"

"You know, before I met you... All I had were Shiro and Allura. You were just some transfer student with a spanish accent. Your accent's gone now, sadly. It was hot as hell. I just... hope you've finally found your peace. You have always hated violence. Sadly you just had to die in such a violent way. And.. I... I'm just so proud to claim the name McClain. The McClain family was the most loving family I've ever met in my entire life.

"When will I die? Will I jump off a bridge? Or run into a herd of walkers? Maybe I can cut. Or just put a bullet into my head. Huh... My vision's... getting blurry... Maybe I'll join you soon, mi amor..."

I'm sobbing. Why did I write this? Now I'm just pissed at myself. The next chapter will be up tomorrow!