the nanny stripper | j.b.

veinte - siete

tabitha

"so it's really you?" justin's voice cracked.

my heart began to race like crazy, i honestly was starting to get weak, i felt like i could just die now.

"i ca-can explain justin,"

"explain?! what the fuck is there to explain? this is what you've been hiding from me the past weeks?" his temper was now rising, he seemed pissed, sad, disappointed, and betrayed.

i shook my head,"this is what i have been doing since i was 18, just let me ex-" he cut me off.

"SINCE YOU WERE 18, WHAT THE FUCK TABITHA? YOU DIDNT BOTHER THIS WAS SOMETHING TO TELL ME ABOUT?!" tears were now forming in my eyes, this wasn't the way he was suppose to find out.

he took a deep breath and sighted,"how could you keep this from me, i took you into my house, let you wear my clothes, take care of my brother, for fucks sake tabitha, god you even lied about being a virgin, i bet you fuck a lot of guys here. i'm so disgusted right now, wow." by the time he finished his sentence i was now sobbing.

"no justin, i was a virgin. i gave myself to you, never have i ever let a man get between these legs while doing the job, just let me explain, please? there's so much that you need to know. i was going to tell you, i just needed to think of the right way to tell you."

"tell me what? that you're a fucking stripper? you want me to believe that you've never fucked a guy before? you're so fucking hilarious, i wonder what other lies have been coming out of your fucking mouth." there was a long pause, the only thing you could here were my sobs.

i was about to speak up when he cut me off,"well i saw what i needed to, don't contact me please. this is over, i just can't," he wiped his eyes and headed out.

the slamming of the door caused me to jump a little, i don't think my heart could take all of this.

the one thing i didn't want happening had happened, and in a blink of an eye.

how the fuck could you let this happen, why didn't i run for him, or at least cut him off to let me speak.

i went into our dressing room spilling tears, i grabbed my stuff and headed out, ignoring their questions if i was okay, or what had happened.

running to my car, i locked it and began to scream, cry, kick. my whole life had fallen apart, i lost the one person i never wanted to lose.

inserting the keys into my car, i sighted.

i took off and began to drive home.

half way into driving my phone began to ring, I ignored it and kept my eyes on the road, but the ringing didn't stop. I reached down to grab it but it fell down,"fuck," I muttered under my breath.

as I took my eyes off the road for a moment I finally found it, the only thing I remember was a honking noise, then everything else seemed to be a blur.

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justin

after leaving the club, guild began to run down my body, yet again, I had a right to react the way I did, she was lying about who she was during the whole relationship.

a few of the things that had come out of my mouth were harsh, but I was angry, and hurt, lashing out was the only way that could calm me.

I had made sure no one saw that it was me going into the club and leaving it, once the cab dropped me off home tears rolled down my cheeks. the love I had for this girl was completely insane, no matter what happened this was the person I wanted, we needed to talk things out but we also needed a break. she had to focus on doing what was best for her, and with my tour right around the corner, I couldn't have distractions.

i grabbed my phone and began to dial her number, it was sent straight to voicemail. I tried for about 6 times but no answer, I eventually gave up and would give her a call tomorrow.

this was such a horrible night, so as soon as my head hit the pillow, I was completely gone.

-

the next morning I was awaken by a huge loud knock on the door, more like knocks. rolling over, I headed to go open it, it was scooter.

he seemed pale, he showed completely no emotion,"yale and I have been calling you, wheres your cellphone?!" he seemed worried, he was starting to scare me.

I pointed to upstairs,"I was asleep, I haven't checked it, why whats going on?" I asked, trying too get some answers.

"tabitha was in a car accident yesterday night, we have to go to the hospital, now." without hesitation I ran upstairs for some shoes, we sped off.

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tabitha

when I woke up my head was pounding, I looked around confused, where the hell was I? my arms were connected to huge machines, my heartbeat was steady, to my right was a snoring zariah. imagines from last night began to play in the back of my head, arguments, yelling, crying, the last thing I heard was honking.

i had been in a car accident.

my main concern was if the other person was okay.

"tabby, oh thank god you're awake," zariah's eyes were red, she grabbed my hand and sat beside me,"are you okay?" she asked giving me a half smile while tears rolled down her cheek.

I nodded my head yes,"did the other passenger survive, are they okay?" she shook her head, a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders.

"nothing happened to the man, his trailer survived a few scratches on his truck but your car was recked, and you have a few fractured bones, but luckily everything's okay and you get released this afternoon once they run some tests." tears rolled down my cheeks.

i explained to zariah what had happened and how justin showed up and things went downhill.

she gave me a kiss on the forehead,"give it time, he will come around tabby. i'm going to go grab some clothes for you, do you want anything to eat on the way back?" I shook my head, I had no motivation to eat, no motivation for nothing.

when zariah left my eyes closed, maybe sleeping will get rid of my problems.

but we all knew that wouldn't happen.

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justin

as soon as we arrived at the hospital my body became weak, was she okay was all that was running through my head.

"she's over here, follow me." a male voice said.

when we stopped in front of her room my heart dropped and my eyes filled with tears.

"everything is fine, she's just resting for a little at the moment, she has a few fractured bones but she'll be back in a few weeks. we still have some tests to run because we found a few things in her body, but everything is okay." I half smiled and nodded.

as much as I wanted to go in the room, something told me I shouldn't. we ended things, she lied, there was nothing to discuss here.

did I really care for her, or was it in the moment?

I turned my feet to the exit,"where are you going?" asked scooter.

"I need to go do something," I walked out of the hospital and called an uber.

i needed answers and I was going to get them.

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a/n: hope u guys are enjoying as much as I am enjoying writing this

the next update will be the last chapter :( but I have in mind of what I wanna do next with this book, sooo pls comment if I should do a sequel or not

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