The Only Reason

Chapter 11

"Looks like you've made your choice." Luke said and suddenly I was being carried.

I could see everyone filming and laughing right before I felt water hit my skin and then a bang. My head hit the bottom of the pool and I was almost unconscious. I tried to swim up to the surface but I had no power left in my body. I just hoped I hit my head hard enough to die.

Next thing I knew I saw a body coming towards me and lifting me up. I could still hear their laughter while being carried further and further away from them....

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I woke up panicking and I couldn't breathe, it was like I was stuck under a heavy rock. My head was aching I was pretty sure it was gonna explode any second now.

Where am I? What happened?

I was sitting up and breathing fast when I realized I was in someone else's bed. Like on cue the door opened and Calum came running to me.

"Jade!" He said and threw his arms around me.

I didn't know how to react at first but I put my arms around his torso and let tears stream down my face like I'd been holding it in for my whole life. I didn't know why I was crying, I couldn't remember. But it didn't matter, I was in Calum's arms and he let me cry. He didn't judge me.

"Fuck" I put my hand on my head like it would somehow ease the pain, but I found a band aid. Well, plenty of band aids.

"Hey," he took my hand and slowly removed it from my head, "dont touch that, you hit your head pretty hard" he said and still kept my hand in his and rested it on his lap. Our legs were tangled up together which made me feel warm.

"What happened?" I asked and looked around his room, anywhere but his eyes.

"It was all my fault" he said and looked down at our hands.

"What was?" I asked and looked down at our hands as well. His other hand brushed my fingers lightly and he acted like my hand was the most interesting thing in the world right now.

"They- they threw you into a pool and-" he kept talking but I zoned out and couldn't hear him anymore. Memories came back to me. How I hit my head, how they made me choose, how they all laughed.

"Jade" he snapped me out of it and put a hand on my cheek.

"How are you feeling" he stared straight into my eyes which made me want to cry more. Why am I such an emotional mess?

I stuttered as I felt more tears staring to run down my cheeks.

"Hey, don't cry baby" he used his thumbs to brush away the tears but all I could think of was his choice of words.

He called me baby.

"I'm so sorry Jade" he hugged me tight and I believed him. I knew he meant it.

"I know. It's not your fault."

"I took you to the party. I knew they were gonna be there. Worst of all I wasn't there in time to stop them."

"It's okay. At least you care" I gave him a weak smile but got none in return.

"No it's not okay. I'm so fucking stupid." He said and looked down in shame. I cupped his cheek which made him look at me.

"You're not stupid, it wasn't your fault." I looked at him in hope he would believe me and realized how close our faces were.

"I'm sorry" he said and I shook my head slowly.

"Don't say that, it wasn't your fault" I said and glanced down at his lips. They were so close now.

Silence filled the room but all I could think of no of is how his lips are torturing me by being this close, but still so far away. His eyes were glued to my lips and mine on his.

One thought couldn't stop replaying in my head though;

You can't do this to Ashton.

I wanted to push it away but it kept replaying. As he got closer it started to fade away though. Maybe this wasn't a good idea but his lips were so tempting. He was so tempting.

His lips reached mine and carefully kissed me before pulling away. He knew he shouldn't do this. But I closed the gap between us again when I couldn't resist him anymore. My hands reached the back of his head and I tangled them in his hair. One of his arms was wrapped around my waist pulling me closer while the other was beside me on his bed supporting him.

The kiss heated up and i laid back down on his bed with him pressing his body even closer to mine. A moan escaped my lips as he made his way down my neck. He kissed my lips once again with a small smirk. My hands trailed down under his shirt and I could feel his well-trained body. A moan escaped his lips as well and right after he pulled away and jumped out of the bed. He put his hands in his hair when he realized what he had done.

"We can't do this" he looked at me in horror.

"Fuck! You have Ashton what was I thinking?!" He started walking back and forth before I could say something.

"It was my fault too" I said and sat up.

"I shouldn't have.. I'm sorry." I said in embarrassment.

"We're both wrong for doing that. But I should've stopped it earlier." I said.

"I'm so sorry Jade," he sat down beside me, "you're not telling Ashton right? I don't wanna ruin your relationship."

"I think I have to. He deserves to know." I looked at his eyes filled with guilt.

After minutes of thinking he answered, "okay. Whatever happens I'm here for you, remember that." He took my hand and gave me a reassuring smile.

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5SOS3 IS FINALLY OUT AND I BOUGHT A SOUNDCHECK TICKET TO THEIR CONCERT!!!

Which one is your favorite?

Mine is probablyyy lie to me or Youngblood. ( I can't really choose tho )

Also comment if you're going to one of their concerts and where:)