Uzdrowię cię moją miłością (I will heal you with my love)

Hiding Behind Screens

I wake up the next morning and and rub my eyes, for a moment it feels like any normal morning. I turn over and look at my phone. 'Hey hope you slept well, are you coming in today? xxx' I smile to myself as I sit up in bed. As soon as I move, my back shoots with pain. Shit I forgot about that. 

I know I shouldn't miss school but the state I'm in there's no way people aren't going to question what happened. I should probably text Charlie back and tell him I still don't feel grate. "Hey I slept Ok but I still feel really rough, I'll see how I feel tomorrow. Could I get your notes from class please xxxx'. 

I swing my legs out of bed and push my hair out of my face. Why was I such an idiot, why didn't I push back last night. I feel like such a failure. Maybe he's right, I am just a puff. 'I hope you feel better soon, do you want me to drop off my note on my way home? xxx' I love the way he thinks about me and the way he must of studied how we text and how it differs from person to person, or maybe April and Tanya have been helping him?

'Best not come over my fathers still isn't in the best of moods and beside I'm grounded so he's not going to let you see me xxxx'. It's more likely he'd try and punch Charlie in the street than invite him in.  

I can't just sit here so I get my towel from the end of my bed and heat to the bathroom. I put the plug in the bath and let it run. It might help my aching body to have a hot soak. 'OK do you want to skype later then? xxx'

'I'll see how I feel later, if im still not grate later I might not look the best. xxxx' I put my hand in the later to see how warm it is and slightly scold myself. "Shit that hot!" I turn the cold tap up a bit to let it cool the water off a bit.

'I don't care how you look, I don't want you getting to far behind xxx' I sigh again, I know he's right I still need to redo the bits of crouse work that were on my laptop, but I can't start that until I go into school. I'll just have to use my frees to catch up on that.

'Can we talk about this later Charlie, I don't feel so good at the moment. xxxx' I know I'm not being fair and that he's only trying to help but how do I explain everything to him. I care for him so much, I think I might even love him but that why I'm pushing him away. I don't want him to know my father like I do.

I turn my attention back to my bath that is about full. Once I've turned the taps off I begin to undress. As I take my top off I see a glance of my back in the mirror and if I'm going to be honest with myself, I really to do look a mess. 

Most of my back look red but in patched it has gone a deep shade of purple, with some deep red spots from were a blood vessel must of burst. I shake my head knowing  thinking about isn't going to make it any better.

I ease myself into the bath and let the heat relax my aching muscles. 'Fine but I do really want to talk to you, I'm going to miss you today xxx.' 

'I'm going to miss you too, but I really do feel terrible, anyway you're supposed to be in Physic in a minute so I'll speak to you later xxxx.' 

I stay in the bath a good hour until it becomes too cold sit in. Once I'm out I feel almost like myself again, almost. I get changed into my jeans and a plaid shirt. I should really get some work done while I'm stuck up here. 

I sit down at my desk and get my notepad and texts books out. I should really get some maths done, I've been avoiding it up until this point but I really shouldn't be. I find the pages on standard deviation so start taking notes.

I've been working on my maths for about an hour unsuccessfully when my phone buzzes next to me, it's Charlie. "Hey, are you not meant to be in a lesson?"