- Y-you... L-like me? - I whisper close to his ear while he's hugging me. He likes me? Yeah, I know, he's already told me before. But this time is completely different. I can't move right now. I don't know if I'm happy or I'm sad. I'm... Shook. These three words just made me realize everything that's just happened. I blush. A million thoughts are collapsing in my mind right now. He likes me... Ugh. How is this even possible? Well... I blush harder thinking about this morning. But I swear, everything I do when I'm with him, I do it spontaneously. I truly am myself when I'm with him. I'm the true version of myself which, although it's completely new to me, I'm quite starting to appreciate. And it looks like I'm not the only one.
Everything about this is just so crazy... I mean... In two days he entered my life and turned it upside down and then brought the true me to life. How?! How's this possible?!
- Yes, I like you so much. - he looks at me. - And I'm not talking about your physical appearance... Well, not only. - he gently places one hand on my chest. - I like you for what you really are. - he kindly smiles.
- B-but... How in this world do you know it? I mean... Jackson. - I look down. - I almost feel like... Like I'm being myself when I'm with you. But I have no clue how you could know about it even before that I could. And HOW IN THIS WORLD have you been able to reveal it. - he lifts my chin to face him and I look at him while he's smiling.
- You think too much, Jinyoungie. And you keep it all to yourself. I only tried to show you that saying our thoughts out loud can only be good. And even if it isn't like that, you'll be ready to face the consequences without any fear. This is the key to spontaneity. And once you make it yours, that's it. And I've probably only been extremely lucky finding such an amazing Jinyoung, under that wall of troubled thoughts... - Every word he speaks sounds like magic to me. He's right. He's so right.
- Are you a psychologist or something? - I ask gulping and then weakly smiling but he looks away pensive.
- Kind of... I find psychology in life all by myself... You know... Personal experience... -
- Is there something in this world you have no "personal experience" in? - I try to reach his hand and he reaches mine caressing my palm with his thumb while holding it.
- Nah... I don't think so... - his face gets closer to my ear and whispers. - But there's some things I'm much better at. -
- Mh... Being humble for example? - he slightly laughs.
- Yeah, exactly... And being right. - I laugh.
- Of course, sir. - I smile at him and he sighs.
- You wanna go out?- he gets up and I look at him after rolling my eyes and I get up but my back hurts so bad.
- Aish. How am I supposed to go out?! - he sighs and looks at me with a disappointed face.
- Fine...- he ruffles my hair. - You're so cute.-
- I'm not. - I pout. - Or.. you mean like... I look cute when I'm suffering? - I look at him.
- Obviously... - he says ironically before hugging me. I hug him back and after a few instants he exclaimes. - Wait. I've got an idea! - he stops hugging me and I cover my ears since his voice was too loud. - Sorry, Jinyoungie. - he laughs and I sigh annoyed. - We're going out, but we won't walk, I'll just drive you around. - he looks at me like a little kid asking her mother for permission. I sigh once more and whisper.
- Fine... Where are we going? - He enthusiastically claps his hands and I stand up.
- You'll see.- I look at him slightly worried but curious.
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~Troubled Soul~ (Jinson//Jackjin)
Fanfic~ It takes patience to melt a frozen heart, It takes nothing to break it. ~ Park Jinyoung is alone. It's just him against the world. He's the cause of his own despair. But perhaps, He has just found the cure to heal his troubled soul.
