~Troubled Soul~ (Jinson//Jackjin)

2.🖤

*the alarm starts ringing*
I slowly open my eyes and look at the time. It's 8 am and today the alarm feels even more annoying than usual. I sigh and proceed to turn it off. My eyes are open, although they're still a little bit sleepy, and I'm laying on my back.

I haven't been dreaming. Actually, I don't even remember the last time I had a dream. Every night I find myself in the same situation: alone, in my bedroom, while my thoughts keep screaming in my head, causing me a headache until I cry myself to sleep.

I sigh again and then get up ruffling my hair and yawning, I walk to the bathroom and lean against the washbowl staring at the mirror infront of me.

Wow, breaking news: my eyes are still puffy, I have huge dark circles under the eyes and I look like I've just got beaten up.

I quickly wash my face with cold water in order to wake up from this pitiful condition, I brush my teeth and have a quick shower before putting on clean clothes from my drawer. Then I make my bed and go downstairs still feeling a little sleepy.

Today's Friday and I have to get to work by 10 am, I still have one hour left. I usually don't have breakfast but today I feel like having some tea. I will probably regret it once I get to work, when I will feel sick, but it doesn't matter to me, I'm getting used to it.

I make my way to the door and exit my home then heading to the bar next to my work placement. I get in, order a take away Green Tea and get out of the bar. I start strolling around sipping my tea and looking at my surroundings. Distracted I bump into someone who unintentionally hits my arm and spills a little bit of my tea on my black t-shirt. Ssibal I curse into my mind and turn around to apologize but the boy I have just bumped into has already run away.

I try to clean my t-shirt real quick but the stain doesn't seem to go away. Ugh I whisper to myself and finish my tea while heading for the restaurant.

I enter the restaurant and greet my boss, I go to the restroom and try to clean up my t-shirt with some water and while I am taking a tissue I hear Youngjae entering.

- Yah, Jinyoung, what happened? -
He gets close to me and tries to help me.

- Nothing, just spilled some tea. - I look at him helping me and I slightly smile.
- Thanks Youngjae. -

- No problem, dear - He brightly smiles at me.
It's not like it's annoying to me, but I'm just not used to being called other than my name. I don't know why. The fact that I'm not actually close to anyone makes me feel like they have absolutely no right of showing affection to me. Man, what the hell am I even thinking about...

- Are you okay? - Youngjae asks me while giving me a worried look. Ssibal, I must have had a disgusted expression painted on my face, I can't even keep my thoughts to myself.

- Yeah.. yeah, I'm sorry I was just... Thinking... - I whisper trying to smile at him.

- Hum... are you sure? - he looks at me. What the hell do you mean I'm sure?! Do you not believe me?

- Yes. - I answer firmly trying to avoid a further conversation.

He looks at me a little... scared?! Gosh, why in the world am I like this? He gulps and then gives me a bright comforting smile, before saying in a quiet voice:

- Never mind, just remember that I'm here... just in case you... Hum... Needed someone to talk to... - he's still smiling at me, but I can't seem to smile back. Someone to talk to?! Man, I don't even know what I should be talking about. I try to smile at him but end up looking a little confused.

- T-Thanks - He opens the door for me and invites me to follow him to the kitchen. I sigh and go after him. Damn, he's so nice to me and I have no idea of how to show him that I'm thankful. Whatever... I don't think he'll care about this anyways... Nobody ever does...