~Troubled Soul~ (Jinson//Jackjin)

20. 💔

- Yeah... I know... -Mark sighs as he kindly smiles and puts his hand on my shoulder.

- I... I saw him kissing another guy... - I whisper, feeling the sound of my heart breaking into a million pieces as I recall what happened. - But... I'm... I'm not angry at him... I... I should have expected it but like... For some reason... -

- You trusted him... - he whispers. - And now it hurts... - Mark tries to comfort me by caressing my back softly.

- Yeah - I whisper, sounding as broken as a glass which has fallen to the ground into the tiniest pieces.

- Right... - Mark hesitates a little, then says: - I knew he was no good... - he bites his lower lip while I look at him slightly confused.

- What do you mean? - I ask him.

- Well... Jaebum is a dear friend of mine, and he's really close to Jackson too... When I asked him about Jackson, he told me things that made me worry so much... - he admits.

- W-what things?- I ask.

- Uhm... - he sighs. - That he's just not the most serious guys when it comes to relationships... He's so likely to.. you know... "Get tired" of people really easily and... Especially now that his career is taking off, he only has music on his mind he couldn't be able to focus on anything else, taking it seriously. - My eyes start tearing up at those words, my heart starts beating really really fast and I feel like a storm of anger and disappointment is just about to hit me.

- W-what? - I ask visibly uncomfortable as his face goes pale and he starts shaking his hands innocently, looking at me in the eyes.

- Nononono wait... I know I should have warned you... I actually would have warned you... But... - he sighs and looks down. - He also told me something that kind of reassured me, so I thought that it would have ended up differently... -

- What did he tell you...? - I ask him with much less hesitation than expected.

- He told me that... He had never seen him like that before... Like... After having met you... Things had started to be different - I furrow my eyebrows not really sure of what he meant. - Jaebum told me he looked like a different man. He'd never seen him this into someone, he was even afraid he would have changed forever and at some point even left music to stay with you. - My heart just skips another beat. I am... So confused rignt now.

Yes, a part of me is kinda angry at Mark for not telling me before but deep down I know that if he had told me those things as soon as he had known them, I wouldn't have believed him.
Did I really mean that much to Jackson, though?
Or maybe not, maybe it's not even because of me that he would have changed, maybe it's that other guy. I feel my eyes starting to burn a little as I'm trying my best not to cry... I really do not want ruin this meal with them. Fortunately the waiter soon arrives to bring our food and, after having politely thanked him, we can finally change the subject.

- Wow... They're so fast... - says youngjae while admiring the food in his plate and taking his chopsticks.

- Well, just MAYBE it's because it's so late there's nobody else eating here right now except for us. - Says Mark giggling while taking his chopsticks and starting to mix the delicious bowl of hot ramen infront of him.

Youngjae takes a look around then lifts his shoulder - yeeeeah, JUST maybe. - he softly giggles then looks at me smiling while I realize my face has changed and looks almost amused right now. - Itadakimasu - he says.

- Yah, just don't. - Mark rolls his eyes and sighs still low-key giggling.

- What! Practice makes perfect! You should do that to hm. - the younger says as I forrow my eyebrows, not really understanding what they're talking about.