Rules with Mr. Playboy

Chapter 13 The Rules

Savannah's POV 

Why is he like this?

Ito ang tanong na naisip ko kaagad.

When you don't know what to do, walk fast and look worried. Ako? Heto nakaupo pa rin. Anong sasabihin ko sa kanya? 

For the first time of my life, I am going to make a decision that I don't know whether if it's right or wrong. When kids made a decision for themselves they have a vested interest in showing they were right but for the adults? I guess not. 

Siguro kailangan kong gamitin ang napag-aralan ko sa Human Behavior about sa decision-making. Decision making means to select a course of action from two or more alternatives. It is done to achieve a specific objective or to solve a specific problem.

Ano ang gusto kong makuha? Anong reward? Ano ang objective ko kung papayag ako sa kanya? 

My subsconscious tells me everything that I am about to make a wrong decision but making mistakes is just a part of life di ba? When there is no mistakes, then where's the joy or happiness in life? 

Life is a sum of all your choices. Sabi ni Albert Camus. Oo nga naman. Sabi nga nila, ng mga taong nasa paligid, your first instict is usually right.

And when it comes to making life decisions, it comes to knowing yourself not knowing " what-if?" Pero sige na nga. Ipu-push ko na ito! Nakapag-isip isip na ako at sana tama.

"So? What's on your mind? Are you going to make a deal with me?" tanong niya sakin. Wala pa rin akong masagot.

" If you don't want to, it's okay. I can't force you." 

" Magtatanong muna ako okay lang?" 

" Sure."

Uminom muna ako ng wine. Paubos na siya kaya, pineapple juice na lang ang inorder ko. Pagkainom ko, nagtanong na ako sa kanya. 

"Who is Jean?"

"Jean is my girlfriend. She is my secret girlfriend. Paul's girlfriend, my bestfriend's girlfriend."

" ANO?! "

Nage-exist pala ang ganung story? In real life? Love triangle?

"Ang life and love mo pala parang movie lang. Masayang panoorin o pakinggan pero may sad moments pala." sabi ko sa kanya. Medyo nakakairita ang part na she is my secret girlfriend. Uso pa pala ang Secret Relationship sa ngayon. Akala ko pang high school lang.

" There is no love like in the movies, Ana. This is a reality."

" Eh di ba nga, yung mga true stories ngayon especially pag love ang pinaguusapan ginagawa nilang movie? Edi may love sa movies." 

" I disagree on that. It is just the brain that controls you especially your emotions and what you feel. It's daydreaming, an odds, word of mouth and so on. None of daydreams have ever come to fruition."

Eh talaga naman eh! Kaya nga madaming nahihilig manuod ng movies.

" I reject that on the hand. Wanna know why?"

" I'm not interested, but keep going."

Aaagghh!! nakaka-asar! I'm not interested but keep going? Baliw!

"  I failed relationships 3 times that turned out . . . not so good. " at tumingin ako sa baso ko.

" But after I had a realization it became clear. Stories has 50% fiction and 50% non-fiction. I'll be the first to admit that I believe in lots of things that other people find silly, but at least I believe in something." pagpatuloy ko.