I was holding Alex's hand it had been a week since I got dumped and Alex asked me out so..I said yes. I wasn't truly happy but he was and I didn't want to ruin that for him. he smiled down at me. "I'm so happy you're mine." He said. I nodded. I got a text from Trevor wow you moved on quick didn't you? I thought of a reply yeah shouldn't waste my time on guys that don't care. I sighed Alex was a nice guy...but I didn't feel for him...at least not yet. I looked up at him and kissed him forcefully. maybe if I force my self to like him I'll come to love him. he kissed back. we moved to the couch and continued making out. I pushed him away. "No...I can't " I stood up "not today" He nodded "I understand" I looked down "thank you." I sighed heavily and went into my room. I flopped on my bed and cried. I knew what I was doing was wrong. I was playing Alex...but at least he's happy...."I miss Trevor." I hated myself for it because people come and people go...you get over it...I'll find someone else I know I will. No...I give up...
