I spun around. It was Alex. "GET OFF OF ME." he drunkily laughed. "WEREN'T YOU FUCKING ARRESTED?!?!?" He pulled me close. "SHHHHH" he whispered harshly. I pushed him away and started to run to Trevor's house. I reached his back door and slipped in. I Ran up to his room and slammed the door behind me locking it. I kept trying to cALM down, I couldn't breathe. I grabbed a bottle of painkillers off the dresser. I got out a sheet of paper and started to write. dear Trevor,
....I can't do this anymore I'm so sorry. I love you and you know I always will. I'm not happy with this life...maybe I'll get it right next time...if I get a next time. I looked at the bottle of pills and dumped them out on the bed. I began to put every one in my mouth. Halfway in I Ran to the bathroom and made myself vomit up the pills. I sobbed,"I can't do it....I have to stay...for Trevor he needs me..." I decided to take a shower. when I got out I walked into his room and crawled into his bed. I had put on one of his hoodies and I felt safer. I was worried about him...I missed him. it's like I had lost some of myself.
