It was about 12am i was sleeping when i felt a tap on my shoulder, it was Trevor. I opened my eyes and looked at him. "Yes?" i said quietly. "I'm going out i'll be back a little later ok?" I nodded. He opened the window and crawled out. I got back under the various blankets but i couldn't seem to fall back to sleep. I was worried about Trevor even though he had only just left. I turned to face the wall, i just sat there and stared for awhile. Finally i got up and closed the window. I sighed...i walked over to his closet and grabbed my bag. I changed into a white tank top and a red and black flannel with some black shorts. I walked back to the bed and grabbed my phone and put on some music. I began to clean Trevor's room because it was a huge mess. I began picking up clothes and throwing away old papers. I sighed.. "it's time to go have some fun" I slipped on my black vans. I walked over to the window opened it and crawled out. I jumped to the ground it wasnt that far of a fall. I began to walk to Alex's house. When i reached his house i noticed his parents weren't home. I knocked on the front door. I heard shuffling in the house and he opened the door. His eyes were red and puffy. He had been crying. I walked in and he closed the door behind me. I hugged him tightly, "whats wrong?" he looked down. "nothing" he said quietly. I kissed him and he kissed back. I wrapped my arms around his neck loosely not breaking the kiss. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close. I finally broke the kiss so i could breathe. He looked at me. "Please don't ever leave hayden you're the only thing keeping me alive. I hugged him tightly as a tear ran down my face. I'm a terrible fucking person. He looked at me. "Don't cry..please don't cry." I wiped away the tear. "ok." I sat there hugging him for awhile. "I Love you alex" He looked at me surprised. "R-really?" "yes.." i replied softly. "But i don't think we're really meant to be Alex I'm sorry..but i don't want to hold you back from any future you could have with someone..better." and with that i left and began walking back to Trevor's. Tears streamed down my face, i felt fucking awful i can't believe i did that..but it had to be done. I got to Trevor's and climbed up and back through the window. His mom was asleep so i took a shower. By the time i got back out trevor was back he was in the living room. So i quickly changed into a white tank top and some black pajama shorts. he walked into the room. "hey." he said softly. "hello." he looked down. "I did something really bad hayden..." I looked at him worried. "w-what did you do Trevor?" "something bad." he replied quietly. He began to shake. "T-trevor...wh..what d-did you do." he remained quiet for a long time. "Trevor you're scaring me...please tell me what you did." He looked at me. He held up his arms..they were covered with cuts and gashes. I hugged him tightly. "Don't hurt yourself you're worth more then that." he looked down. "No i'm not..i'm nothing..im just a fuck up and a second choice and..a mistake." I Kissed him deeply, I held the kiss for about 3 minutes. I Pulled away. "Trevor you are not a mistake you aren't a second choice....you were always my first choice you aren't a fuck up you are amazing and i love you." He hugged me tightly and began to cry. I hugged him back and pet his hair. "I love you Trevor." He looked up at me. "Please don't leave me again...don't go..not like last time." I looked at him. "I'll never leave you again..i swear i won't ever leave again. He crawled into bed and patted the spot next to him. I laid next to him and turned to face him. "You're adorable." he said.. I Blushed. "No I'm not." He ran his fingers through my long blue hair. I sighed and curled up next to him. I soon fell asleep.
