Liar, Liar

Part Five: Still Waiting

Inspired by the song "Not Ready to Make Nice" by The Dixie Chicks

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I'm not sure I could

They say time heals everything

But I'm still waiting

  Sam calls you almost every day now. He keeps telling you that Dean's hurting . What does he think you've been doing? You've been crying your eyes out, missing his touch-- what else? Dean's hurting? He hurt you for months, and sat back to watch your heart break over him. Sam tells you to give it time and everything will work out. What the hell does he know anyway. You're just trying to get through this without any more scars.

I'm through with doubt

There's nothing left for me to figure out

I've paid a price

And I'll keep paying

  You don't know why he did it, and you act don't care anymore. You need to put this behind you. It's just not worth your time anymore. It's not worth the pain.

I'm not ready to make nice

I'm not ready to back down

  You don't know if you're ever going to be able to be okay again, but cutting Dean out of your life will be a good start. You just have to move on.

I'm still mad as hell and

I don't have time to go round and round and round

  You are done talking to Sam about this. You can not and will not come running back to Dean. He didn't appreciate you, and all you ever did was love him. You want to hunt again. You want a life. Really- you just want a sense of normality.

It's too late to make it right

I probably wouldn't if I could

  You miss him so much, but you're letting go.

'Cause I'm mad as hell

Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

  But you're not sorry.

I know you said

Can't you just get over it

It turned my whole world around

And I kind of like it

  You thought you heard the familiar roar of the Impala outside, but it must be your imagination. No one knew where you went. You hadn't even told Sam.

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby

With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'

It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her

Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger

  At this point, you weren't even surprised anymore... just, well, confused. Why did he start acting like that out of nowhere? Why would he just start to ignore me? Was it something I did?

I'm not ready to make nice

I'm not ready to back down

I'm still mad as hell

  You weren't as sad as you were angry. How could he do this to you? All you ever did was treat him with love and respect, and he ignored you. You were beyond pissed.

And I don't have time to go round and round and round

  You were tired of all of the emotions he had given you. Sadness, anger, misery, despair, heartbreak, desperation. All of it just made your head hurt.

It's too late to make it right

I probably wouldn't if I could

'Cause I'm mad as hell

Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

  Someone knocked at your door, interrupting your thoughts. Without looking to see who it was, you turned the knob.

What it is you think I should

  Standing in front of you was the last person you expected.

Forgive, sounds good

Forget, I'm not sure I could

They say time heals everything

But I'm still waiting

  Dean...

.

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A/N: I'm not sure how I feel about this chapter... what do you guys think?