I Will Never Be Loved (Rant Book)

I'm sorry...

I'm so sorry 

I didn't mean to cause this

I just made things worse

I'll go back to my old self 

the grade 6 me 

...but im still gonna drink......hah 

but I can pretend to smile 

pretend not to care

 when I do

its just 

I killed who I used to be

but I can fake 

oh well 

i made it worse

it's my fault 

I'm sorry....

I wasn't there for you when you needed me the most