I Will Never Be Loved (Rant Book)

I'm sorry don't leave me 😢😢😭😭

I'm sorry I started this shit 

is my fault 

I distroyed our group 

don't fucking tell me I didn't 

I distroyed it 

this is my fault 

I let one simple problem get in the way 

after grade #, we didn't know what to do 

after 2 months of grade #

2 FUCKING MONTHS 

I STARTED DATING 

I STARTED BEING TO BITCHY 

TO HAPPY 

THEN IT ALL WENT DOWN 

DRAMA 

HEARTBREAK 

I tore us apart 

my bad 

now 3 of my friends are planing to kill themselves

and I can't do anything about it 

because I'm scared...

There I said it 

I'M FUCKING SCARED 

I'VE LOST SO MUCH 

I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MORE 

Please...

i'm begging you 

don't 

leave 

me 

I don't want to lose more 

please 

come back 

be ok 

if you tell me what's wrong I'll do everything in my power to help it 

please 

I'm begging you 

I'm crying right now 

I want you guys to stay 

please don't leave early 

please 

you deserve beter 

if we work together 

we can fix the problem 

or at least make it beter 

please 

I'm fucking begging you 

please 

I like you... 

I'd rather you not like me back, than you leaving this world early...

I would take all your pain 

if I could 

I'll go threw hell for you guys 

because you were there for me 

but I forgot about you 

and then your worlds got more distroyed 

its my fault 

I could have prevented this 

but if you are leaving me 

then 5 days 

5 days 

give me 5 days 

to be your friend again 

to be happy with you again  

because if your leaving me 

5 days will all I have left