I Will Never Be Loved (Rant Book)

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help me 

nothings working 

I can't be happy 

....

whats the diffrence 

between faking to much 

and feeling the real thing to much 

all I do is drown my sorrow 

but I can't leave this world 

because of my friends 

my family 

'it'll be over soon'  they say 

BULL SHIT 

I CALL BULL SHIT 

YOU HAVE BEEN SAYING THAT....

For ....

for....

for...

I don't know...

my mind is all fuzzy and crowed...

you've been saying that for 7 years....

I've never fit in 

ive allways stuck out 

struck out 

I'm struck down so much... 

I don't notice anymore 

my friends can lie

but I see right through them 

I'll throw a party

.....

a pity party 

with cake 

decorations 

balloons 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks 

drinks......

what kind of drinks? 

not kid ones 

let's get all the alcohol drinks 

D R I N  K   T I L L  W E   D R O P 

There's no 'we' 

there's only me 

why am  I numb while I'm around people..

then when I'm alone I cry 

I cry so dam hard