Consequences of Sin

Chapter Nine

"I don't even know where to start, this is such a shit storm, Caleb." I don't even want to say this shit out loud. Makes it more real for me.

"Just start at the beginning, Car. We'll sort through it all afterwards." he says quietly, as he rubs my knee, giving me an encouraging smile.

"So, uh..." I'm drawing up blank on how to say this shit without it coming in like a fifty foot tall wave, obliterating everything in sight.

"There's no easy way to say this, no way to put it nicely, that lessens the significant impact it has on my life. Lucifer came to me in my dream, only I didn't know it was a dream. I found out later. It felt real, because according to him, it was real. Some sort of shared consciousness. I'll get to explaining that in a minute." I put my hand up to stop him from talking. He sat up straighter, and went to talk. If I lose my flow I have going, I will just stop talking about it altogether, and let the darkness I feel inside over take me.

"Please, don't interrupt me. If you do, I will just not finish telling the story. I will let all of this shit inside me, devour me. I have to get it all out now, or it won't happen at all. Okay?" I ask him this, because I need him to understand how serious this all is. He nods at me, then shows me he's zipping up his lips, and throwing away the key.

"So, as I was saying, some sort of shared consciousness. Whatever happens in it, happens in real life, if Lucifer is to be believed. He told me that he used to take control of, and possess, my lovers I've taken to bed. Instead of me fucking the hot guy like I thought I was, I was actually fucking Lucifer. How fucked up is that?! My own father, unknowingly to me, would possess my lover's body, just so he could fuck me. He did it multiple times, if not every time I had a sex session to try grounding my anger, and rage. Lucifer noticed that I wasn't becoming pregnant, and wanted to know why. He talked to my fairy maid, found out I was taking the contraceptive brew, and had it replaced with a placebo brew. Three months ago. He wanted me to get pregnant, and according to him I am ten weeks pregnant with his child." I am bawling, and sobbing now. Ugly crying is on display. Snot running down as well. I do not want this. I don't want to be pregnant, especially not with his kid.

"He's my fucking dad for fucks sake! Why would he do this to me? How can I be pregnant with his kid? In order for you to get pregnant by the devil, you have to willingly have sex with him. I willingly had sex with the lovers I've taken, not him, surely there's some rule there. It can't count that as consensual sex with the devil. That's basically rape. I can't process this. What am I going to do, Caleb?" I'm still crying, and sniffling. Caleb's face is a mask of silent rage. He looks like the angel of death right now. I have never seen him look like this, it's frightening. He lets out a howling yell, that I swear is the sound of him coming unhinged. When he looks back at me, his eyes are glowing a burning red. What the hell?

"I am going to rip him to shreds, when I get my hands on him. You don't deserve any of this shit, Car." his face is still a mask of rage and pain, eyes are still burning.

"Can it be true? Please, I need to talk, and rationalize through this. The darkness is going to consume me if I don't." I say to him as I reach towards him, and run my fingers down his cheek.

"Yeah, it can be true. Lucifer has to have permission to sleep with any human woman. You barely have any human qualities to you. You grew up in Hell. Even your blood has rejected being mortal, you have angelic blood running through you. Although you didn't willingly fuck the devil, he willingly fucked you, and yes it could very well be his baby. If he says it is, and willing to take risks on it being so, then you can count on it. The shared consciousness kind of confirms it's his as well. I'm sorry, Carmen. I don't know how to fix this." he whispers to me so sadly, sounding so broken.

"He said all of this other crap was just a ruse to see what God's plans are with me. He knew you were keeping tabs on me, and that God has been watching his every move. He's been monitoring you all, just as you've been doing to him. He knew I was pregnant already, and designed the whole wedding crap feast thing to catch you. He thought I would have fought going with you a little harder, giving him enough time to get there to us." Caleb rolls his eyes at this comment. It's like Caleb knew I would have trusted him enough to go with him. He's always seemed like safety, since I first saw him. That gut instinct must have knew he was my guardian angel.

"Lucifer, also said that he knew I had met with God. That, of course, God is going to want me to be on his side, because I am so powerful. He even suggested that I could be powerful than God, how ridiculous. Lucifer's goal with me is to marry me, train me, and produce a child with me. One of the three goals has been accomplished. I do want to train my powers. I need to, so that way I can be ready." Caleb is nodding with me in agreement here.

"However, I need a meeting to be set up with God. I need to fill him in on all of this shit. I want to terminate this baby. Lucifer, insinuated, that the baby can't be aborted. I am willing to try whatever possible method has a chance of working. I do not want to give a birth to my father's child. A child I am sure I could never love, because of how it came about. My life is too chaotic for me to handle. I feel really unstable." I whisper this last sentence in fear of something hearing it. I know this is Caleb's safe house, but those demon pets of my father's are resilient little bastards. That's why I call them cockroaches, and they're always multiplying. I don't think you can ever extinguish them.

"I can get another meeting to be set up. Carmen, I don't know how God is going to handle this new situation. It's a messy bunch of shit. It's a game changer. Michael will probably be there as well. Be prepared for him to run his mouth. I promise, Car, no, I vow, that I will destroy Lucifer, when the time comes." he says so full of emotion, and I know he means every word he's saying. So, I nod in confirmation. I can't keep myself from worrying about Caleb though. I know Caleb means well, and I'm sure he's fully trained with his powers, and can get shit done. However, he is no match for my dad, especially if Lucifer gets his hands on Caleb first.

"I know you will, but be careful. He's a dirty sneak, as you are well aware now. I can't let him capture you. He has promised a slow torturous death, that will last for a couple millennia. No matter what, you must stay safe. I have a feeling I'm going to need you." I whisper this last statement, admitting a weakness aloud is never a smart idea, but I'm clearly not thinking straight, not during these moments.

"I understand, Car. Your safety will always be my top priority." he smiles as he says this.

"Alright, let me go get that meeting arranged with God so we can update him with this new situation. We need to figure out what to do ASAP with all of this."

Caleb gets up, and walks out of the room. All work, and no play with this boy, I swear. Give this situation, it's for the best. Can't complain any. I'm still sitting on the bed, as I glance down at my belly. Can't believe there's such an abomination inside of there. Good ol' dad, he's such a joy. Ugh, I lay down on the bed with my eyes open, fully awake, waiting for Caleb to come back in with the information on this meeting to come. Time to mentally prepare myself for this, especially the battle to come with Michael on this. I let out a loud sigh.

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