Consequences of Sin

Chapter Six

    "Wow! This is Heaven? It's so beautiful!" I say to Caleb. Beautiful isn't even an adequate enough word to explain how gorgeous and lush this place is. We are walking on clouds! The clouds are that pretty purple pink color you see when the sun starts to set, and sink down low. The gates of Heaven are indeed made of gold, with all sorts of gemstones aligning them. I cannot get over how awesome this place looks, and I'm still outside of Heaven.

   "Heaven is the most beautiful place you will ever see, Car. Nothing will ever come close to comparing to it. Now we have to let the gate assess us, so we can go to God's table where the meeting will be held at." he gestures towards the gates.

   "What if the gate decides to throw me out just for being who I am? Oh, uh, will my  grandfather be there? What of Essy? I feel terrible I am just now asking about my mother." I do feel like complete shit for this too. Not once have I asked about her. I have always wanted to meet her, yet here it is I'm almost all but forgetting her existence. I feel ashamed.

   "The gate isn't going to throw you out for being his daughter, Car" I eye him suspiciously. It very well could I bet.  "Michael may be there, I'm not sure. God didn't say. As for Essy, uh, no she won't be there. Essy is dead. I'm sorry Carmen, but your father killed her as soon as she had you. She wasn't of use to him anymore, so he forfeit her life." I am in shocked horror. I cannot believe he did that, and lied about her all this time. He has said such horrible things, lies, about her. When he knew, he was the one to kill her. I feel so ashamed. I have been so mad at her my whole life for abadoning me, when she never did it. "She does live in Heaven now, if you're wondering. Seeing you would hurt her too much. She's living as a different person now. That way she doesn't become hurt, sad, and angry over the things that happened in her life that Lucifer is responsible for doing. It's too much for any one person to bear." Caleb looks sad. He has probably even met her. I'll have to ask some other time. If Caleb could, I know he would tear my father apart piece by piece.

   "Oh, I didn't even think. Thanks for telling me. Wow, he killed her then told me she abandoned me. Didn't want me, because I was his daughter. I should have known." I'm still shocked, hurt, and extremely ashamed. I hate Lucifer more now than I ever have. Fuck him.

   "I'm sorry, Car. I assumed you knew she had passed at least." he's frowning as he's looking at me. Probably wondering how deeply this is affecting me. My poor guardian angel, always on duty.

   "It's okay, Caleb. Thanks for informing me. Alright, let's get this gate thing over with then." At this point, I'm numb. I just want to get this over with.

   "As you wish, darling." he says offering me a big grin. He is quite charming, I must admit. Makes it really hard to be a cold hearted bitch when he willingly tells me whatever I want to know, and appears to care about me. Nobody has ever cared about me or been so warm towards me. It's a nice change. I much prefer Earth over Hell.

   "Carmen Isabelle Divinity. Daughter of Lucifer and Essy Divinity. Age 17. You are pure, with no evil intentions. You may enter thru Heaven's gate."

   Hello talking gate. Whoa. Lucifer and Essy were married? That's also news to me. Not much I do know these days I'm figuring out. It also reminded me I'm still not 18 yet. When we're done here I need to find out the date. I'm close to being there.

   "Caleb Lee Jackson. Son of Joshua and Anissa Jackson. Guardian angel to Carmen Divinity. Age 20. You are pure, with no evil intentions. You may enter thru Heaven's gate."

   "That voice is creepy, so montonous, and lifeless. You would expect something more cheery beings as this is Heaven, not Hell."

   "It is more like an artificial intelligence. It's an automated system that knows all, and sees all when it comes to distinguishing between good and bad. There's not a person, or an angel, behind the voice. Guess that's why. You get used to it after awhile."