Hearts Race, The Moments Gone - Andy Biersack

6: Painful Heartbreak

Alyssa's POV
*1 month later*

I groaned as my alarm went off. I still didn't want to move, but I knew I would have to go back to work sooner or later. I took a month off after..... I couldn't even say his name. I attempted to rub my eyes, but my face was sticky from crying my eyes out. I sat up, my body shaking. I slowly crawled put of bed and headed towards the bathroom. Cold air filled my house. I thought with it being cold, I would have an excuse to stay in bed all day. I turned on the hot water and waited for the room to steam up. As I waited, I grabbed a random towel and stripped down. I looked at myself in the mirror, disgusted.

"No wonder he cheated" I muttered to myself, tears threatening to spill from my eyes.

I turned away before I threw a tantrum. I adjusted the temperature of the water and stepped in. The water hit my back and I sighed. I sat down on the shower floor to relax the best I could. I held my knees up to my bare chest. I watched as the water flowed down my legs and into the drain. Then my eyes stared at a razor. I remembered how Chloe and Sierra would get rid of the pain....

Alyssa, don't do this to yourself

I couldn't. I just couldn't. I sighed and got up. I washed and rinsed my hair and body. I turned off the water. I rested my forehead on the tiled wall.

"Why?" Tears began to fall. "Why? why? Why?"

I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed. I couldn't help it. I hit the wall hard with my fist. I took a few breaths to calm myself down. I wiped my tears and stepped out. I wrapped the towel carelessly around my body. I walked slowly to the bedroom. Then my stomach began to turn. I ran back into the bathroom, spilling my guts out into the toilet. I stood up, washed out my mouth, and brushed my teeth. I re-wrapped the towel around me and walked into my bedroom.

I put my hair up in a messy bun before getting dressed. I got dressed into a nude colored tank top with a thin, gray jacket over it. I put on denim skinny jeans and my light brown Uggs. I grabbed my keys, phone, and wallet. I dragged my feet across the floor, heading towards the front door. On my way I looked at the couch. So many memories with him there. I turned my face away before I cried again. I walked out the door and got into the car.

*****

I walked inside the studio. I decided to quite school and just stay a photographer. It just seems easier that way. Plus, ever since the last photo shoot, I had been having different companies call both Velvet and I asking for us to work with them. One was even Vans Warped Tour. I told Chloe and Sierra about it and they begged me to choose that. If I would choose it, I would get my own bus and I could bring up to 9 other people. I thought about doing that. But the only thing is, it was going to take about 2 years before I can officially do that. Contracts and shit take forever.

"Lyssssssaaaaaa" Velvet called out, her out stretched out her sides.

"Hey" I greeted weakly.

She stopped, frozen in her place. "What's wrong boo"

"N-n-nothing" I stuttered, holding back the tears.

"Tell me" She replied, hugging me and holding me close.

"I g-gave him my love" I cried. "I gave him my fucking love"

"Who sweetie?" Velvet wiped my tears.

"A-Andy" I sobbed and my stomach began to turn again.

"Oh god Alyssa" She held me close and stroked my hair. "I'm so sorry"

My stomach started to turn again. "B-b-bathroom" I exclaimed before running into the restroom.

I kicked open a stall and got on my knees. I puked into the round bowl. I felt arms around me. I groaned and looked up to see Velvet.

"Let's go see a doctor" She suggested and I nodded.

We stood up and I held my stomach. I wrapped one arm around Velvet as she carried me to the car.

"Do you want me to call Chloe, Sierra, and Allison?" She asked.

I nodded and she helped me into the car. I winced in pain. It hurt like hell. Velvet started to drive.

******

I laid in the hospital bed, waiting for the doctor. Chloe, Sierra, and Allison showed up about 5 minutes before. Alli was sitting in a chair holding my hand. Chloe and Sierra were on my left, resting their hands on my leg. Velvet stood at the end of the bed.

"Ugh! My stomach" I whined and held my stomach with my free hand.

"Its going to be okay" Sierra reassured me.

"I hope" I whispered.

The door creaked open revealing a older man. Brown eyed, grayish white hair, had some wrinkles here and there. Looked probably about late 50s early 60s. He approached is with a smile.

"Hello Ms...." He took a look at his clipboard. "Waters. I see your having stomach problems"

"Yeah" I stated.

"Have you had any sexual intercourse recently?" He asked and I tensed up at the question.

"Y-yes. Why?" I questioned, becoming nervous.
"Would you mind taking a pregnancy test?" The doctor raised his eyebrow.

"N-no" Me.... Pregnant...What?

He handed me a little cup and I made my way towards the bathroom, feeling as if I was going to cry again. I couldn't have been pregnant. I couldn't. I entered the bathroom, locking the door behind me. I did my business in the cup. I set it on a little cabinet that had a picture of the cup on it. I went over to the sink and washed my hands. A tear fell from my eye, but I wiped it away and did my best to hold back the others.

I entered my room again, laying back down. Everyone was staring at me as we waited for the results. My heart raced faster and faster. The anticipation was getting to me. Then the doctor came back. I sat up, along with everyone else.

"Congratulations, your pregnant" The doctor smiled.

"W-what?"  I stuttered, not believing my ears.