Hearts Race, The Moments Gone - Andy Biersack

Are We Moving Too Fast?

Andy's POV

My head was in my hands as the guys threw questions at me. Honestly, I expected this. Some of the questions were what I was asking myself but others were fucking crazy.

"Did you feel anything?"

"Was she still hot?" That was CC.

"Do you still love her?"

"Did you fuck her?" That was definitely Ashley.

"Will you all just shut up for a minute?" I snapped because honestly they were right. I guess.

Ashley wasn't right, I didn't fuck Alyssa. Everyone else was correct though. I thought I was over her. I thought the feelings wouldn't come back. But then, I look at her. She was still stunning even though her eyes couldn't look into mine. I deserved it though. I hurt her. But damnit I love her.

"Sorry we just..." Jinxx sighed. "We don't like to see you hurt"

"I'm fine. I didn't feel anything I'm just tired. Goodnight" I lied and stood up.

Walking to my bunks, I felt my heart shatter. I knew I could never have her again because I already hurt her twice. She will never forgive me. This will all be put on Jenessa. She will hurt too. I screwed up and now the feelings are back. I can't do it.

I laid down and wiped my tears away. I pulled the blanket up closer to my chest. I shut my eyes and waited until sleep took over me, and that was a while.

Jenessa's POV

*next morning*

I woke up with a smile, remembering the events that occurred the weekend and day before. The concert. Finding out Andy mother fucking Biersack is my father. Michael loves me. I'm going to be in the Goodbye Agony video. It's all so much to take in but I love it.

I sat up and stretched my arms with a smile. Everything was wrong but now, it's becoming right. Except, I have no idea how my mother will react. She couldn't even look him in the eyes. I wonder what Andy thinks about this honestly. He seemed really nervous and his heart was racing fast.

I pushed the thought to the back of my head when I heard my door open. I saw my Aunt Sierra come in with a smile. I smiled back at her. She sat at the end of my bed down by my feet.

"So, you know don't you?" She asked looking down at her lap.

"That Andy is my father, yes" I answered. I thought I would have sounded more bitchy but I didn't, shocking.

"Well there is something else you don't know either" She bit her lip. "You know how I always say your uncle is busy?" I nodded in response. "That is because he is usually on tour" My eyes widened.

"T-Tour? What singer or band or whatever?!?" I shouted. "I must know!"

"Do you like Of Mice & Men?" My jaw dropped.

"No I don't" I continued. "I fucking love Of Mice & Men"

"My last name is Carlile for life" She chuckled.

My back fell to the bed. What. The. Hell. Who else is a band member in my family? Holy shit! I wonder who Aunt Allison is dating even more now. She could be dating anyone but I'm hoping it's a band member because then my life would get even better. Plus my fangirling would probably be easier to contain if I had enough practice.

"When can I meet him?" I asked with excitement.

She laughed, "Tonight"

That's when I truly lost it. I screamed at the top of my lungs. It hurt my throat but I didn't care one bit. I'm going to meet Austin Carlile. My uncle is the front man of Of Mice & Men. Why the hell didn't I know this before?

"Why didn't I know this?" I questioned with a somewhat evil.

"Because we didn't want you to somehow find out about,,," Sierra didn't finish her sentence. Wow.

It made me angry that this was all hidden from me. I bet, if I would've known years ago, I would not be a rebellious teenager. This pissed me off.

I stood up from the bed and put on pants. Sleeping with pants is so uncomfortable for me. So I just wear a big t-shirt and underwear. I opened my bedroom door roughly and it hit the wall. A bang echoed in the house but I was too pissed off. I quickly ran down the stairs and looked around to find my mother.

I found her in the kitchen making breakfast happily. I slammed my fist against the counter. It hurt a lot but I shrugged it off. I didn't want to look week.

"Are you fucking serious?" I got her attention.

"Language and what are you pissed about now?" She asked calmly.

"You just love to hide things from me don't you? First Andy and now Austin! Really?" I growled and angrily ran my hands through my knotted hair.

"It was to protect you" She muttered.

"Protect me from what?" I felt myself tearing up. What did she need to protect me from? He's my fucking father!

"I didn't want a-anything to hap-ppen" She sighed with tears flowing down her face. "I didn't want-" I cut her off.

"I'm sorry" I backed away. "I shouldn't have asked"

I walked back upstairs. My mom looked dumbfounded that I actually apologized. I guess it was because of her distrust to Andy. She didn't want me to get hurt like she did twice.

I entered my room and Sierra wasn't in there anymore. I closed my door behind me. I heard someone clear their throat and I jumped across the room. I turned around to see Michael.

"What the hell?" I hit his shoulder hard. "You dick you scared me"

"I'm sorry baby" He put his hands on my hips and pulled me closer to him. "I just love you so much and I missed you" He started kissing my neck.

"I love you too but we can't do this now" I pushed his head away before things went further.

"Yeah we can" He kissed me. "You just have to be quiet" He smirked and pushed me onto the bed.

***

I sighed and laughed as Michael rolled off me. He started laughing too. We don't know why but we did. He played with my hair and kissed behind my ear.

Then I felt different. My whole attitude and feeling changed. Are we going to fast? I mean it was one 'I love you' and then we were having sex.

"Are we moving too fast?" I blurted and Michael stopped laughing.

"What are you saying?" He faced me and cupped my cheek. "I love you and I know this is right. There is no such thing as moving fast when you love someone as much as I do"

"I love you too" I kissed him.

He pulled me up so that I was straddling him and we were still unclothed. His hands roamed up and down my body and our lips moved in sync.

We were interrupted when my phone started ringing. Michael groaned and I picked it up. Andy.

"Hello?" I greeted.

"Hey Jenessa! I was wondering if you wanted to hang out with me and the rest of the guys today before we continue touring" He offered.

"Yes!" I yelled with excitement. "I mean uh that sounds fun"

"How about I pick you up in about two hours?" He suggested.

"I'll be ready by then" I smiled even though he couldn't see it.

"Okay baby girl" He hung up.

I set down my phone and Michael brought his lips back to mine. I pushed him away with a innocent glare. He pouted and put his hands at my hips.

"But babe" He whined.

"I have to get ready" I grabbed a towel and headed for the shower.

"I'm joining" He smirked and followed.