Hearts Race, The Moments Gone - Andy Biersack

9: How Dare She

Andy's POV

I woke up, actually scratch that, I had been awake. Except it was 5am. I couldn't get any sleep knowing that I had a daughter. I still couldn't get the idea of me having a child wrapped around my head. Jenessa was basically a spitting image of me. Black hair, blue eyes, and pale skin. She had some of Alyssa's features though. Jenessa had her lips, her ears, her smile, and definitely her personality. That kid had sass! But why did Alyssa keep our child a secret?

Because you cheated and lied to her about Juliet.

Oh shut up! Wow, I was yelling at myself.

I crawled out of my bunk with one thing on my mind. Alyssa. She changed so much, yet she was still the same. I was still madly in love with her. Even after all of those years. How couldn't I? She was so fucking perfect. Even if she was a bitch to me. I deserved it. I did have sex with her and then she found out about my girlfriend. To me though, it wasn't sex. It was making love. Sounds so cliche I know. But its the truth.

I walked to the front of the bus, careful not to wake up any of the guys. I needed a stress relieving cigarette. Or as other people might call it, a death stick. I personally didn't give a fuck. I took a hit, already feeling the stress leave my body. I sighed. I needed air too.

I stepped out of the bus, the air was refreshing my lungs. It was a good thing I stayed in my clothes from yesterday. I didn't want to look indecent. My back hits the outside of the black shiny bus and I slid down. My butt hit the concrete and my head rested against the bus. I needed sleep, but can't get any. I needed Alyssa, but wasn't ever going to get her back. But maybe I could have convinced her to forgive me.

Why not give it a shot? I mean, she can't hold a grudge forever.

I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. With a groan, I rolled my eyes and answered. I didn't check the caller ID because it was fucking 5am and I was just lazy.

"Hello" I greeted, hopefully the annoyance in my tone doesn't show.

"Hey babe" Juliets voice flowed through the phone.

"Hey baby, what's up?" I replied, trying to sound happier.

"Nothing much, just missing you" She answered.

"I miss you too Dragonfly" I cooed.

"So, why are you up at 5am?" Juliet questioned.

"I could ask the same to you" I teased.

"Well I asked first" She chuckled.

"Just couldn't sleep" I stretched the truth.

"Well, I'm up because I have a surprise for you" She stated.

"And what might that be?" I played along.

I heard foot steps coming from around the bus. I stood up as I saw Juliet peer from around the corner. She was wearing a white tank top, black skinny jeans, and red heels to go with her lipstick. I faked a smile and ran to her. I engulfed her into a hug, kissing her neck.

"Oh my god. I can't believe your here" I exclaimed. That was the absolute worst time for her to show up.

"I can't believe I am either" Her voice croaked as if she was crying.

"How did you get here?" I asked, pulling away from her.

"A cab. You guys aren't leaving here until tomorrow so I thought I would visit until then"

Good, she wasn't going to be here long.

"I'm so happy your here" I lied with a smile. Harsh I know.

"I am too" She grinned.

I pressed my lips to here's. As expected, I felt nothing. Ever since that first kiss with Alyssa, I felt nothing with Juliet. How was I even still with her? I didn't love her. Hell, I had no feelings for her in that way at all. I was such a fucking idiot for letting it go on for 7 years.

I think its time to end this.

"Let's go inside" I suggested.

Juliet nodded and I led her inside. We sat on the couch and she instantly thought I wanted to cuddle. I sighed and Juliet sat up.

"What's wrong?" She asked.

It was time to end that shit once and for all.
"I have to tell you something" I continued. "Four years ago, I met this girl Alyssa. I kissed her and we fell in love" I could see the tears form I'm Juliet's eyes. "We had sex and then she found out about you. She left me. She is a photographer here and she brought our daughter, Jenessa"

"So you cheated and have a child?" She scoffed.

"Yeah" I replied.

"Four fucking years ago?" She stood up.

"Yeah" I repeat.

"You know, I thought you were the one. I thought you loved me" Here we go again. "I believed you. So everything these past 7 years meant nothing?"

"Only the past 4" I shrugged. I was being a dick but I didn't give a crap honestly.

"Fuck you Andy. I hope your little bitch is good enough for you" Ok now I was pissed.

"She's not a bitch" I argued, standing up.

"Well she seems like a whore for sleeping with you" Juliet scorned.

"She isn't a whore. I was her first everything!" I yelled, not giving a damn about the guys.

"You sure about that Andy! It doesn't fucking sound like it!" She shouted.

"Why don't you go fuck yourself!" I screamed.

"Why don't you go fuck your slut!" She hollered as she left.

I turned around and punched the wall with a scream. How dare she think that about Alyssa?!?! How fucking dare she?!?!?