Saving Hope

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The universe has always worked in miraculous ways, entrancing every soul and writing out their destiny with each detail. I wonder what my destiny is. Is it this? What details has is wrote out for me that I didn't notice? With every breath I take I wish for a different feeling. I was on a car ride, the summer breeze was blowing on my face, the sun was kissing my right arm, my brother was driving, and I was listening to one of my favorite songs. Everything seemed perfect except for the lump in my throat and hole in my chest. I can't explain what's wrong with me, I don't know what's wrong with me. I wish I could feel something different. Is this my destiny? I can't see clearly anymore so I don't know what to do or what direction to go in. All I know is that currently, I should focus on myself until I figure it out. The only problem is I hate myself. I don't want to be me anymore. I've changed so much in so little time, I'm not sure I could do it again. However I will still try. Even if nobody else can see how hard I'm trying. I'll try to find a light source within myself, even if I have to burn a few things away in order to do so.