WHEN SHE BECOMES MINE | KTH ✔

24.FINAL WORDS

"If you don't fight for what you want, don't cry for what you lose."

Ha Sun's POV

"What do you mean, Sun Ah?."
He asked me hesitantly.

"I just want to clear my mind.
I'm messing around here, making those around me in trouble. Actually, I don't want to, but I should do it. You know what I mean, right, oppa?." I replied, trying to hold my sob as I could.

"You really want to do this? Is Taehyung the reason?." He asked slightly murmured.

"No... He's not the reason. Just wanna feel relaxed a bit. I have talked to my parents, and they agree. I'll stay at my aunt's house; she lives there. New air maybe healing me a lot." I replied doubtfully, intertwining my fingers under the table.

"Look, I don't want to force anything on you, but can you think it again? You'll leave all of us."
He spoke while putting his cocktail on the table.

"It's okey. I just left for a few months and got a good collage in."

"YOU'LL LEAVE ME again."
He was slightly shouting and drooping quickly.

"Why are you so desparate, Oppa? I'm not leaving forever  just. I tried to make it clear.

"You left me before I went abroad. I got stressed about it and tried making friends with random people, especially girls. Now that you're back, I can see your beautiful smile and voice that I missed so much, but you're already with someone, with a guy I adored my whole life. I can see you, but your heart is untouchable. You know what I regret my self not telling you at place before if I lo,-"

"Don't say it, Oppa. Don't say it, please." I cutted while my tears began showing up, emphasizing word please that he could understand me. He saw me with soft eyes, looking down at the table.

"I knew it. You already know what I feel, but ignore it easily. Why do you do this to me, Sun, ah?."
He frustrated.

"I never play your feeling; just the way I feel to you is exactly opposite with yours. The means 'love' I know with yours; I just got it now.
I love you like my older brother, the one who cares and loves me in any condition I get. But the way you feel to me is different from mine. I just don't want to hear it from you because I don't want to hurt you. You're a precious person for me. I'm afraid if I reject your feelings, you'll hate me and don't want to see me. It hurt me so bad.
I lose you in a few years, and I won't let it happen twice in my life.
I hope you forgive me; forgive my selfishness, oppa." I explained slightly teary, palming my hands on my face for hiding my tears from him.

"But you never gave me a chance in the first place. Even in the past, you liked Seung Jo rather than me. I just try to fight my feelings before I regret what I did—to lose you."
He replied softly yet deeply.

"You always at the first place, oppa. Even I made something for you, but it never comes to you."
I replied, trying to wipe my tears on my cheeks.

"What is it?." He asked.

"Skecth Paper." I replied bluntly.

"What the special of it?."
He frowned, curious about what I meant.

"I think you better not know about it because it is already for someone else. How many times I try to get it back, it always stuck on him. It's already in the right owner." I smiled, looking down at my glass.

"So why you tell me?."

"I just want you to know you will always be my special person, oppa. Special person from the past till the end of my life." I said while looking at him.