Loyal

Chapter 61

Vera's POV

            "Colin is a man ho!" Leah slams the apartment door open, making the statement like an announcement over a megaphone. 

                        "What?"  I'm eating chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, I've been so damn hungry lately.

            "I saw him, outside of Levi Stadium with some white ho," Leah says, hand on her hip. 

                        "Doing what?" Colin? With someone else? 

            "He said he was doing a damn interview, but who does an interview in a skin tight dress? That's what the fuck I wanna know."

            Could he really be moving on so quickly? I feel myself about to cry but I stop myself, looking up to the ceiling. Don't cry, don't cry. Colin is his own person, he is not with you, he has a right to see anyone he chooses. You. will. get. over. this.

                        "Maybe he really was doing an interview, you never know." I don't even believe myself when I say it. 

            "Why are you defending this fool Vera? Clearly he is a no good cheating dirty asshole! I'm just saying, this should be enough reason for you to really want to move on."

            Move on, move on? How could I move on when all I can think about is his smile? The way it feels when he holds me from behind, the touch of his lips against mine. There is nothing in this world softer than his lips....How could I move on from this? When I tied my future with him? When I wanted to marry him? Share the rest of my world with him? How? How? How?

            "Earth to Vera, Earth to Vera!" Leah is in front of me, waving her arms in the air and interrupting my thoughts. "Colin equals bad, Cam equals good! Get it?"

                        "I don't know. I'm not ready to jump into anything," I say quietly, spooning another scoop of ice cream into my mouth. Hmmm...Pasta sounds good all of a sudden. Something with marinara sauce that I can drown into, something other than my sorrows. 

            "Look, I think you should go with Cam to the gala. You know, to let the world know that you've really moved on. I mean, I bet Colin is going to the gala with someone else." That stings. I definitely cannot handle seeing him with someone else. Not now. Maybe......ten years from now. 

"Look V, just think about it. You are a strong woman, you can get through this. I just feel like, having someone help you along past a heart break isn't a bad thing."

                        "So you're saying I should use Cam as a rebound?"

            "I didn't say that."

                        "Leah, I'm good, don't worry about me."

Leah looks at me, taken back by my straight forwardness.

            "What are you trying to say missy?"

                        "I'm saying you need to get laid!" I laugh.

Leah straightens and throws her arms up in the air.

            "Girl you aint lyin! I need to get laid, my pussy is growin cobwebs!" she heads back towards her bedroom. "I'm counting on this weekend! My damn prince better be at the gala, I'm done living through you!" I let out a weak laugh and turn back to my chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. I ate all of the chunks of cookie dough out, leaving nothing but a soupy mess of brown stained vanilla ice cream. Empty. My ice cream mis empty, and so am I. Colin on the other hand, clearly moved on. How could he move on so quickly? 

Jealousy grips me immediately when it really sinks in, and I try my best to think clearly. Colin. With another girl. After everything we'd been through. 

            I let out a long hard breath before reaching for my phone.

Cam?

I send him a text.

            Vera! Sup?

What r u doing this weekend?