Worthless. - Sam Pottorff

chapter 16

Sams POV:

This is all my fault. I knew things were hard on her and I got so selfish and wanted attention that I went to my ex.

I might have lost my moonlight in a world of darkness, because I chased after a star.

Thalia was the moonlight that guided me through the darkness. She was one of the few people I knew I could always count on.

She was my everything.

And I betray her.

Soon enough the ambulance pulled up and carried her out on a gurney. I climbed on board the ambulance as we drove to the hospital.

Thalia was barely clinging onto life. I sat next to her and held her hand in mine.

"I'm sorry Thalia. You don't deserve this." I said as I kissed her hand.

"I love you..."

We pulled up and they took her into a hospital room and I sat in the waiting room.

Since she was unconscious, they put a tube in her lungs to protect them and a tube in her stomach to pump it out of her body.

When they finished, they let me in to see her.

I still held her hand in mine as she rested. Wow. I can't believe I let someone this beautiful and amazing slip right through my fingers. 

She's all I care about. I love her more than anything else in the world. Yet I cheated on her.

A doctor walked in breaking me from my thoughts.

"Sir, visiting hours are over. You may come back tomorrow if you like." he said.

"Okay sir, just one more minute. Please."

The doctor nodded and headed out.

I held Thalias hand and closed my eyes.

"Please don't give up on me Thalia. I know I messed up and I don't deserve you, and I know you probably hate me, but I truly do love you. I can't wait until you wake up so I can see those gorgeous eyes again and I can hear your beautiful voice. I'll be back tomorrow for you. I'll be back everyday until you're out of here. "

The doctor walked in again.

"Sir, you really must be going."

"I was just leaving." I replied.

I took one last look at Thalia.

"I'll be back tomorrow princess." I whispered as I kissed her forehead.

I left the hospital and headed home.

I got into my car and started driving.

It was so quiet. Usually Thalia and I would have some random conversation and we'd laugh until our stomachs hurt and we couldn't breathe.

But all thanks to me shes in the hospital and she hates me.

I turned on the radio to try and get my mind off all this.

I turned it on and of course. Our song is playing. I feel the tears start to build up in my eyes but I don't let them fall.

Memories flashed into my mind of when Thalia and I used to sing the lyrics to one another.

We would stare into eachothers eyes and sing. I could get lost in her eyes.

Everytime I heard our song I couldn't help but smile, but now. Everything is so different.

This song brings me nothing but sadness because I was so happy with her, but now shes gone.

I arrived at my house and went up to my room.

I laid there on my bed all alone. Usually Thalia and I would cuddle until we fell asleep, and I'd wake up with her arms around me or my arms around her.

Just her being there made me happy.

I turned around to see where she used to sleep. God I miss her so much.

I closed my eyes and the first thing I seen was Thalia.

Looks like I'm not getting any sleep tonight.