Live fully and fearlessly

Chapter 8

He was kissing me. I was kissing him back.

He pushed his body against mine I put my hands in his hair and pulled a bit I earned a low grunt.

Shivers running down my spine as his hands were on my body. I push my self into him.

I can't lie it feels good but it also felt wrong.

I tried to push him off me but he didn't buge.

I stopped kissing him back after a minute he finally caught on.

"Whyd you stop" he asked breathless.

"Because this is wrong I can't do this" I said.

I can't do this it's not right he's going to get hurt and if he gets hurt it will be all my fault again.

I don't want that to happen again.

He stepped back giving me some space, yea that's what I need.

"How is it wrong because I felt the strange pull and I know that you felt it too" he said looking at me with hurtful eyes.

Ha I am the one that hurt him how does he think I feel. I can't kiss no one with out them getting hurt.

"Please just take me home" I demand, I can't be here anymore everything is happing too fast. I can't do this right now, I can't deal.

He didn't say anything as we walked to his bike I got on after him and he drove to my house.

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We arrived at my place and the lights were off giving me a sign that my parents were in bed.

I got off the bike and walked to my front door.

I felt my arm being grabbed.

I come face to face with Simon.

"One day you will be mine" he said walking off to his bike and drove it next door.

What the fuck man my day can only get better and better. Note the sarcasm.

Why can't I have a normal teenage life? oh yea, because your ex boyfriend is in a gang that has threatened your life and anyone that you get close with.

I opened my front door.

I turned on the light and I stopped in my track I was breathless.

My house was turned up side down couch' s were ripped up all to pieces.

The glass table were shattered.

I walk further into the room and I couldn't breath anymore.

There were my parents both shot in the head lifeless on the floor. I couldn't feel anymore both my parents have been murdered.

I drop to my knees and grabbed my phone out of my bra and dailed 911.

"Hello what is you emergency" the women said.

"H-hello...my parents both have been...shot" I said trough each sob.

I didn't want to believe it I didn't want it to be real.

My life is all kinda of fucked up but this this is not fair.

What am I going to do now I don't have any other family that I know off.

I am 18 but I can't live on my own.

I am breathing really heavy now.

"Okay ma'am stay calm what is you address."

" 1256 forth macon drive" i told the lady.

"I am sending help. Are they breathing if you can tell? " she asked me.

"No they're not."  I said.

I heard the police and ambulances so I hung up and went out side.

Someone was running towards me but I wasn't paying attention I was frozen in time I couldn't seem to grasp what had happen.

Theyr dead because of me the only two people that loved me are now dead.

I can't believe it I feel like I am going to wake up from this horrible nightmare but it's real.

This is reality in it's most realist from.

The cop was talking to me but I didn't have anything to say.

"Hey kid what happen?" he asked me.

"I..I don't know. I came home from a party and I walk in to find both my parents dead" I whispered.

I can't breath, I can't move, I can't do anything at all.

I heard me name being called but I didn't respond to it.

"Nicky what's wrong" the person said.

"Both my parents are dead" I sobbed out.

I can't contain it any more I cried I fell to my knees but I didn't hit the ground as I felt my self being lifted up bridal style.

I looked up to see Simon carrying me to his house.

"T-thank y-you" I said in between sobes.

"Shh Nicky it's going to be okay" he said trying to reassure me but I knew that it wasn't going to be okay I knew that it's just getting started.

Their after me again.

I need to go back into hiding.

I felt my back hitting something soft then it dipped in and I felt Simon hand over my waist.

My eyes grew heavy and I fell into a deep sleep.