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i wasn't kidding.

if you read the last chapter, then please know that i don't ever want to influence anyone to take that course of action.

not only is it unhealthy and damaging, but if you want to lose weight, that is not the way to do it. you'll only gain it back again if you ever decide to start eating again, and even the path to that could be rocky.

girls, or even guys, whoever you are, wherever you are - purging or starving yourself DOES NOT solve anything. it does not make you skinnier. if you do want to lose weight, then do it in a healthy way, and make sure that you even need to lose weight at all.

body dysmorphia is a real thing, and most people will possess it, especially in a society like ours, where we photoshop models and promote skinny rather than healthy. so, look at your body - really look it - and ask yourself, "am i fat? do i really need to change this? or am i skinny?" 

then, don't look at a magazine. no, i want you to make yourself feel good about yourself. dress up, go shopping, eat, whatever. but do whatever makes you happy.

did you need to be a magazine model to do that?

did you need to freaking photoshopped to be happy?

did you need to a size zero and even below to do that?

if the answer is no, then, be happy with yourself. please.

you're perfect the way you are.

it's one thing to exercise if you just want to maintain a certain healthy weight or if you want to get fit, get toned, maybe lose a little over here and over there, AS LONG AS you are doing it in a healthy way.

remember, starving is not the solution.

and the thing is, here i am, preaching, but i can't do anything about what you do. but i want to let you know that if you need anyone to talk to, i'm here. if you ever want to stop, there are people who can help you to quit. there are people who've been through what you're going through, or are even going through it right now. there are people who understand.

you are not alone.

if you ever need someone to talk to, if you're even in a situation and you need help, but you can't call anyone you, if you just need someone, i'm here. 

if you don't think you could trust internet strangers, or might need to hear someone's voice, i've included a few helplines below. i don't know if they'll help, but if you ever need them one day, here they are.


Hotlines for America:

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

Self Harm Hotline: 1-800-DONT CUT (1-800-366-8288) 

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Hotlines for other Countries:

Argentina: 800 5555 5522

Australia: 1800 799 338

Austria: 800 5555 5522

Belgium: 800 5555 5522

Brazil: 0800 891 7391

Canada: 866 246 9224

China: 800 5555 5522

Colombia: 800 5555 5522

Costa Rica: 00 800 5555 5522

Denmark: 00 800 5555 5522

Finland: 800 5555 5522

Germany: 800 5555 5522

Hong Kong: 800 5555 5522

Hungary: 800 5555 5522

India: 000 800 1006 614

Ireland (Republic of): 800 5555 5522

Israel: 800 5555 5522

Italy: 800 5555 5522

Japan: 800 5555 5522

Luxembourg: 800 5555 5522

Malaysia: 800 5555 5522

Mexico: 001 800 514 3716

Netherlands: 800 5555 5522

New Zealand: 800 5555 5522

Norway: 800 5555 5522

Philippines: 800 5555 5522

Portugal: 800 5555 5522

Russia: 810 800 2643 1012

Singapore: 800 5555 5522

South Africa: 800 5555 5522

South Korea: 800 5555 5522

Spain: 800 5555 5522

Sweden: 800 5555 5522

Switzerland: 800 5555 5522 (143)

Taiwan: 800 5555 5522

Thailand: 800 5555 5522 

UK: 08457 90 90 90

Other Hotlines:

National Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663

Youth America Hotline: 1-877-YOUTHLINE ( 1-877-968-8454)

Covenant House Nine-Line (Teens): 1-800-999-9999

Boys Town National: 1-800-448-3000

Teen Helpline: 1-800-400-0900

TeenLine: 1-800-522-8336

Youth Crisis Support: 1-800-448-4663 or 1-800-422-0009

Runaway Support (All Calls are Confidential): 800-231-6946

Child Helpline: (UK Only) 0800 1111

Kids Helpline (Australia): 1800 55 1800

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