But She's Darkskin ||Completed || BEING EDITED

Darkskin: Chapter Thirty - Four

The ride didn't take no longer than four hours, only because we weren't too far from Deleware. My cousin Riley was waiting for me to come here so she could show me around. I also have to start looking for a two bedroom apartment for the boys and I. Not something too big but nothing small because my small children make big messes. When we got there I got out the car holding a sleeping Kas on my shoulder and Ashton trailed behind me. I walked up to my cousins door,  then knocked on the door awaiting for an answer. It swung open and her smile was huge.

"Alex- I mean Ashleeeeeey." She squealed jumping onto me hugging me tight. I giggled hugging her back.

"Rileeeey,  Hey baby girl how you been?" I asked walking past her and into the house with the boys.

"I've been amazing, sorry for what happened to you girl. Auntie always said you needed to be with someone who loved you. I never liked Kingston."  She picked Kassir up putting him on her lap as she sat down.

"I know, no one liked him much but I loved him. Now I question if he really even loved me. Basically we were together for ten years."

"Find someone else who will live you baby. It's not too late for you to find that one." She explained to me. I put my hands over my face feeling the tears build up in my eyes.

"I'm done with men, love, everything. I'm just going to raise my sons to be better men then their father is."

"Boys go upstairs, Your cousin Jay is up there playing games. " The boys ran up the stairs, she came over to me sitting down. "Let everything out, please." I thought about it and stood to my feet.

"When I first met him, I thought he was a fucking weirdo. He wouldn't leave me alone. When we actually did talk he stopped me from cutting,  he snuck into the house every night and slept with me so I could feel safe. Through everything he was there, he almost killed the teacher who tried raping me. Everything... He told me he loved me Riley, he told me I was his everything. He made love to me,  he comforted me..... He made me keep like a little girl again. I loved him and I still do but I don't know why I was so stupid. Stupid enough to believe he actually would stay with me. I'm not attractive, he just wanted to make me feel good. The sleepless nights worrying if hed come home. The cries, the laughs, the good times and  bad ones. We have gotten through it all. We have two children together, that he didnt once think abouy in this whole situation. How long was this going on? Did he lie to me every time? Why was I such a fool? I should have listened to eveeyone... I wonder if he even cares that I left... Will he come chasing after me anymore?"  I cried out loudly.

"Do you want him too?" I looked at her. I had to think about it, but I had a for sure answer.

"No."

Aaron

I paced back and forth across the room floor. House empty. My life has changed in the last five days, drastic changes too. I've lose everyone I cared for and loved but I did this to myself. I regret it so much, if I look back on my life I'd have to say if it wasn't for the people whom I don't have anymore I'd be dead. I didnt have a reason to live. Now it's totally different. My sons hate me, My brother and or best friend hates me, Tiff and Carly hates me, my in laws hate me, my kids hate me and most of all Ashley hates me. Funny how life turns out right? You do one thing not thinking it'll back fire this bad but it did. 

I had the perfect family, including a woman and a man who loved me like their own. Now I have no one and the only person I can blame is myself. Nothings going to change, ever...

"Ashley, please pick up.... I'm dying without hearing your voice." I left another message on her voicemail. Her phone keeps going straight to voicemail. So it's either off or she pressing the end button as soon as it rings. Do I expect her to answer? Yes... I have done stupid shit before but it never involved Ashley leaving me for good. She'd always come back. I guess I tried taking advantage of that, thinking she'd come back. As I can see now,  She's gone for good.
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"Ashton I love you man." I told him over the phone. I had finally gotten a call from Ashley. Kassir wanted me but when he was done Ash didn't want to talk.

"I don't think so." He mumbled and then the line went dead. That cut deep,  deeper than all the words Elijah said to me yesterday. I threw the phone up against the wall and left out the house.

"I fucked up! I always fuck up." I shouted getting into the car slamming it shut.

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