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-Hermione Granger-

I stare at Draco, waiting for an answer but already knowing it.

"Hermione..." He whispers and tears start to clog my sight. I knew it but I had some glimmer of hope...that is now crushed. I hear moving and soon I'm sat in Dracos lap, his arms around me. "I'm so sorry baby"

I shake my head and tug at his nice shirt. "No I'm sorry...I'm sorry I wasn't a better mom to our babies Draco. I'm sorry"

"It wasn't your fault, ok baby. It was the Bloods. Not yours."

"Whyd they come after me!" I say, remembering the the Bloods are some gang in LA that have a riff with the Mafia.

-Draco's POV-

"Because baby, they wanted to hurt me. The guy I killed" Im whispering into her ear so no one but her can hear. "Was a blood"

Her breathing become rigged and the machine that she is hooked up to start to go haywire.

"Hey, baby, calm" I say and rub her back. She start to calm down but the nurses are already crashing through the door.

"Sir, put her down" A male nurse rushes towards us and I shoot him a glare. He stops and backs away, Julian grabs his upper arm and pulls him out of the room.

The other nurses are working on some other stuff that I'm not sure what it does but that's not important.

"Baby I'm going to be able to take you home tomorrow afternoon, ok? And I'm not letting you out of my sight until whoever did this is dead." I hear her gulp and I kiss her temple. "They won't get away with this baby, not while I'm alive."

-The Next Day- Hermione Granger-

My injuries were minor because Silas protected me with his arm. A huge piece of the windshield flew into his arm that was across my stomach. I made sure to thank him when I was aloud out of my room. His injuries were  worse but he isn't in critical condition.

We both have a concussion, his worse and we both got whiplash.

Silas' arm should heal within a month, he got stitches and one of his ribs are fractured.

I've been bleeding since I miscarried and I should bleed for another week or two. It's supposed to be like a big period, except worse. It has a fever, these cramps that are supposedly unimaginable according to some other moms who have miscarried and the blood flow is supposed to be really heavy, with blood clots and tissue. It's all supposed to be bad...not to mention how you feel.

You feel like crap, emotionally. It's times like these that I wish I didn't feel anything because it would jut be easier, not human but easier. You feel empty, emotionally and literally. You feel responsible, because I am responsible. You feel guilty and depressed. There's this pit in the bottom of your stomach and this hole in your heart that just eats at you. It's suffocating and horrible. I wish I would've never even gotten pregnant, that way I wouldn't be feeling this pain. That way I would just feel sore and have a headache.

I was told that the only reason I miscarried is because the structure of my uterus wasn't right and then the impact of the crash just was too much. My babies would have survived if I was stronger and better. I wanted to be stronger. But I've never been strong, ever since I was a little girl. I felt too much and could do too little.

"It's not your fault, don't beat yourself up" I hear Julian's voice ring behind me and he places his hand on my upper arm.

"It is my fault Julian. I wasn't strong enough, I never have been." I say, not wanting to speak about it but needing to at the same time.

Draco had to step out of the room because Brenton and LaRue are here to talk to him about the Bloods since he missed the meeting today to be with me.

I clutch the window ceil and close my eyes, not wanting anymore tears to spill.

"Please get Draco" I say in a rough voice. "I want to go home now"

I feel Julian presence leave and hear the door open. I sigh deeply and run my hands through my tousled hair. I didn't sleep last night because I was afraid someone would come and finish what they started.

They were trying to kill me, not my babies. Hell they didn't even know I was pregnant, our babies were just caught in the cross fire.

I can hear my heartbeat in my ears, every time I think about the Bloods and the accident my heart beats faster and louder and my head starts to hurt because I'm so mad at them for taking what's mine. For taking the innocent.

At first I thought 'it's Draco's fault for killing that dude' but then I realized, no it's not Dracos fault because he was trying to KEEP me and the babies alive by doing that. The Bloods were trying to kill me and my babies and it was my fault because I was too weak to carry my babies.

All in all, It's basically my fault no matter what they say.

"Come here angle" I hear Draco say behind me. I turn around and run into his arms, I just want to be with him  and him only. That's why I didn't allow anyone to visit me except for Draco and Julian.

I mean I didn't have a choice because Julian was here because of Draco. I mean I minded but didn't at the same time.

Pansy, Theo, and Seba came to visit soon after I woke up but I didn't want anyone else to come in. My parents came but I didn't let them in either. Technically they could've came in without my permission but The hospital wouldn't let them because of what I had went through and if too much stress or pressure was out of me then I could have a panic attack and if it was really bad I could have a heart attack.

"I want to go home Draco" I mumble into his shirt that he was wearing yesterday.

"Ok baby, let's check you out then."

I'm wearing a sweatshirt and pair of leggings that Theo brought for me. He didn't get to come in my room though. I sent him a message saying thank you and he sent me back this really sweet message saying how much he loves me and how sorry he is.

It made me cry because he's just so sweet and he's basically my brother even though I already have one.

My actual brother called me and I answered, he talked to me and scolded me for not telling him I was pregnant but then said all these sweet things and told me how he wished he was there. I mean, I wish he was here too. He would be the only other person I'd allow into the room though, no one else. I don't know why but I've always gone to my brother when something went wrong, even the smallest things.

I love him a lot and really wish he was here right now, maybe I'll go visit him in a couple days once I'm a little better.

"I'm so sorry"