fourteen seconds to failure.

three.

please don't ask how i'm feeling
when you really couldn't care less
if i answer, you won't believe me
you say i'm looking my best

but what you don't understand is behind this makeup and this smile
i'm struggling to stand here
my head swimming, my legs weak
but instead of listening, you let my outward appearance make me a liar

i don't want any of your pity
really, please save it
i just want you to acknowledge that i can't always be what you want
for what you don't see,
is that tonight i'll cry in bed as i deal with today's consequence
because every step i take, my health will surely later pay the punishment
but, sure, don't listen to me, i'm only your family
but i guess you never truly were listening to me anyway